THE JOURNEY AND THE THOUGHTS

Project Pop

2008-09-03T23:45:00.002+07:00

Teman Tapi Ngarep
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Cintaku Berat Di Ongkos
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Beda Sama Kamu
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Bukan Superstar
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An Update from Brillyan

2008-08-11T15:07:00.003+07:00

It has been sometimes that you heard about me. Here I am in Surabaya for the past 1 week plus plus.. It's hot here!!
Anyway.. I have been helping my dad with the admin stuff of his cigarette factory. The plan for the future? I am still thinking about the opportunity of going China for learning language.
Anyway..Have been going out a lot too with my friends in Surabaya :D Will be going out again later for a farewell of a friend who is leaving for work tomorrow morning. This is my life in Surabaya!! :P
Okie then..shall update more things later when I have the inspiration ;) That's all for now friends! Take care!

A Touching Moment....

2008-07-25T23:15:00.001+07:00

Amazing Child...!

2008-07-22T21:25:00.002+07:00

This young girl was blind since young, but the blindness didnt stop her to show her talent. It was a touching performance...
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God's time

2008-07-22T14:52:00.002+07:00

So many things happened in the past week... from my exam's date not confirmed yet to my friend's interview in jakarta. so many things that didnt go according to my plan yah.. by right, if my plan went smoothly, i would be getting ready to go back surabaya right now. but i guess God still wants to do something while i am in singapore.

with so many things happened, i started to understand again about God's time. His plan is more beautiful than our plan. there might be things that I dont like to happen, but i do really need to believe that He has beautiful things coming and He knows what's the best for every single one of us.

for the time being, i would just leave everything to Him and be more sensitive to Him... hopefully, as i learn more, i would be able to accept everything that happen with big heart and really control my emotion...

Selalu Mengalah

2008-07-20T01:07:00.001+07:00

Is there really a guy who can really sacrifice like this guy in this video clip?
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From the Grand Final Idola Cilik..

2008-07-18T22:38:00.001+07:00

My hair was standing when I heard the duet...I think I like this version better than Joy and Delon's version :P
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Thank You God...

2008-07-12T00:19:00.003+07:00

Taken from: Heavenly Humour Vol. One by George Ong.
Published in 2006.
Page 95-96

If God has an answering machine it would be like this...
Imagine praying and hearing this:
Thank you for calling My Father's House, Please select one of the following four options:
Press 1 for a request
Press 2 for a thanksgiving
Press 3 to complain
For all other inquiries, press 4.
So you press 1 and hear: "We're sorry. All of the angels are helping other customers right now. Please stay on the line. Your call will be answered in the order that it was received."

What would it be like if you heard the following response as you called God's answering machine?
"To receive the latest promotional gift with your order from paradise parlour, press 0, and an operator will assist you."
"To find out how many angels dance on the head of a pin, press 5."
"If you'd like for King David to sing a psalm for you, press 6."
"To find out if your relative is here, enter his/her date of death and listen for the list that follows."
"For reservation information or to confirm your reservations at My Father's House, press the letters J-O-H-N, followed by the numbers 3-1-6."
"To know what your pastor is doing at this moment, press 7."
"For answers to nagging questions about dinosaurs, the age of the earth and where Noah's Ark is, wait till you get here!"
"If you want to know what I think of world politics, don't press anything. Hang up and listen for laughter."
"Our computers show that you have already called once today. Please hang up immediately."
"This office is closed for the weekend. Please call again on Monday."

Thank God you can call Him often. You only need to ring once and He hears you. Because of Jesus, you never get a busy signal. God takes each call personally. He knows each caller personally. Then you will call and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, ad he will say: "Here am I." (Isaiah 58:9) (Church Bulletin)

Cute Advertisement.....

2008-06-30T14:45:00.001+07:00

Check out the boy's expression at the end.. cute!

If You Could Change Your Past, What Would It Be?

2008-06-29T04:01:00.002+07:00

We had been asked one or more times if we could change our past, what would it be. Well, most of us would give an answer that our life perfect and there was nothing that we would change. But is that really your answer?

I finally found the answer to that question. If I could change the past, I would be more sensitive to one of my friend. What I feel right now is that I have failed to be a good friend to this friend of mine. And this mistake is so big that somehow I feel that I am part of the reason why these friend becomes who she is right now. The guilty feeling is there... And I am not sure how to handle it without feeling guilty towards her. A lot of questions were in my mind when I was talking to her... and those questions started with the word "If".But I guess, it's all too late now. I don't have the power to go to the past and change whatever happened. I guess I just have to live with the feeling forever.

It's hurtful when I found out about it. I cried till my eyes were swollen and almost finished up a box of tissue. The last time I cried this bad was when I broke up with my ex-boyfriend in February. Can you imagine that? It was even more hurtful even my friend said that she had no more value. There was like a knife stabbing my heart. It was very painful!!Really... the only time I felt this way was when I broke up. The same feeling... It kinds of make me realize how much do I really value this friend of mine till I have this kind of feeling. Won't you cry so badly for a friend whom you didn't care at all?

Well, think to it... Maybe if you failed yourself, it won't be this bad. But this is about a life of another person who is going through a lot of things because of what you might neglected to do. That what I was thinking.. I don't mind if it happened to myself, but I couldn't take it if it happened to others.

I just hope that God would shine His glory through this situation. I have no idea what God wants to do... All I can do is just following Him and surrender everything to Him...

To my friends who are reading this post, I hope that you really try your best to be someone's friend. Be really there when they need you. Really try your best so that you won't have to regret whatever things that you don't do what you were supposed to do. May no one ever gone through the same feeling that I had gone through today...

If Only...

2008-06-22T02:15:00.001+07:00

I love this song very much.. If only there was a guy out there who could be someone in this song....

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Horoscope...

2008-06-22T00:51:00.002+07:00

Year 2008 Romance

You idealize having a close relationship and spending time laughing, spending time in the moonlight and romanticizing until the wee hours of the morning. You have been going through a lot of changes in your love life, and not so sure you can deal with the ups and downs that you have experienced in relationships in the past. You may want to enhance your playfulness and creativity by exploring cultural experiences where you can enjoy beauty with your partner. Excitement in your love life and enjoying the high life is very appealing to you now.

All these fun and creative activities will help you and your partner to strengthen your communication. Being spiritually connected with another helps you to feel the equal energy of sharing. Your intense desire for feeling connected to your love and taking it to the next step will trigger a need to explore whether your dreams are being reciprocated. Discussions of partnerships and marriage are likely and, through these talks, you gain new insight into your desires.

Towards the end of the year you will want to openly share your innermost secrets and passionate nature. The desire to be more connected to home and your nesting instincts will want to be satisfied in this year of new beginnings.
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I dont really believe in horoscope. I had nothing to do and I was browsing through Yahoo when I came to the horoscope section. There, I went to find out my horoscope for fun. There was something true about what it said. Just look at the first sentence.. that's my romantic part!! hehehehe... And also the second sentence..sometimes I was just wondering whether I could go through another ups and downs of a relationship again. I was just so afraid of being hurt again and again...
Sometimes I was just wondering about relationship... *sigh*

Quote from Sex & The City Trailer...

2008-06-06T11:58:00.006+07:00

"Life doesn't always turn out to be your fantasy, that's why you need friendship so real to get through it"

last 3 days of my US trip...

2008-05-26T08:25:00.003+07:00

I am in Miami now... enjoyin the breeze and the sea here..

shall enjoy the last few days in US. I will be leavin US on 27 May and reachin SIN on 29 May... Please prepare the red carpet at Changi yah ;)

last hours...

2008-05-17T14:38:00.004+07:00

here i am in the last few hours in oklahoma city... time flies really past yah.. 3 weeks had passed so fast.. especially with the great gang :) i am going to miss the time that all of us spent together here.. i guess the residency is fun all because of the companion that i had for the past 3 weeks.. thanks guys and gals.. you all had left a wonderful memory in my life :D

Back: Rossy, David, Amanda, Calvin, Putri, Lala, Faisal, Paqsa
Front: Brillyan, Janna, Monica

New York... Here we come!!! :D

Some Update...

2008-05-09T10:05:00.002+07:00

Some update from Brillyan...

My muscles are aching!! They hurt so much that I have difficulty to sit down, stand up, and even walk up or down the stairs. Not only me, my roommates and some of the class also got it :P:P All because of the exercise that we did yesterday to check our muscle endurance and muscle strength and something about the cardiovascular activities. We had to run 10 laps, did sit and reach thingy, weight lifting, stand squat, push up and curl up. Did you know that I cried yesterday in the gym. Soooo embarrassing... But I just couldnt stop from tearing up. It was when we were supposed to do step up in this very high block. I have a trauma in doing this as I had an accident when back in Surabaya when I had PE class. I was doing the step up activity and my leg hit the chair (where I was doing the step up) It was bleeding at first but then I found out that my broken was crooked because of that accident. So, whenever I am supposed to do a step up, I would be so scared. It was so bad yesterday that I was shivering. When my friends saw my pale face, they kept on asking what's wrong with me. As you know, the more they asked me questions, the more I am stressed out and in the end, I cried cause I couldnt take it anymore. hehehhe...it's so embarrassing right?? hihihihiiii...

Anyway, during the class, we were watching a movie called "Sicko". It was about the health care system in the United States. To cut it short, the health care system in US is sux! There were a lot of people who were either suffering or dead because they didnt have enough money to go for the medical recommendations that were given to them. Even for the heroes who worked very hard on September 11 incident in New York. Many of them suffered a lot of things because of the volunteer jobs they did but the government didnt care about them at all!! Michael Moore, the producer, compared US to Great Britain, France and even Cuba where the citizens there were able to get medical help for free! It was so cool in Britain that the cashier there was not for paying the hospital bills, but for the reimbursement for the patients' travel expenses. COOL!! In France, the government sent a nanny for those household whose both parents were working full time. It's all for free!! Shall we migrate to France?? kekekeke...

I found that the advertisements on TV in the United States were interesting. Some of them were stupid and some of them were interesting. Some of them had no connection with products that were being advertised. Many of the advertisements were about drugs and insurance. Then some of them dared to compare the products with the competitors, what I meant was that they really said out the competitors' names.

Yesterday was the 2nd tornado warning that I had. What made it worst was that we were outside, on the way back to school from the Health Center. What made it even worst was that we were forced to move from the bus that we took from the center to another bus. It was raining so hard!! Even though we just walked a few steps from the first bus from the other bus, we were wet and by the time we were sitting down in the bus, I was shivering so hard from the cold. bbrrrrrrrrr! in the end, we didnt go to the quail springs mall as there was another tornado coming and the school didnt want take the risk to send us to the mall :( but think to it.. it was good as i didnt need to spend money at the mall ;)

Ok Ok Ok... I think I should stop now... I had typed so much yah :P:P just wait for another update yah kekekke... take care!!

2nd week in Oklahoma City

2008-05-06T11:36:00.004+07:00

Hey thereeee!!

It's the 2nd week in Oklahoma City. I am taking the class of management of personal lifestyle for this week and something to look forward to this saturday is the graduation ceremony!! The personal lifestyle class so far so good... the professor is so fit!! and she is trying to make the class more interesting, which is good! :)

Anyway.. throughout this trip in US, I have learnt a lot of things, not just those things in the campus, but also about how to stay with others who are different than me. It's a good experience.. Makes me think what will happen if I stay together with my future husband next time :P I guess I have to bear with all the things that I dont really like...

US is a different country that Asian... Even the birds that I can find here are different than those I can find in Singapore or Indonesia. I find that the birds here are so beautiful... I can just watch them fly so freely.. Another scenery that I also like is the view at Mt Wichita and from the top of Mt Scott. It was so breathtaking there and it seems that I could just spend a lot of time there to sit down, enjoy the wind and enjoy the view. It's something different from the view in Singapore. Then, I got to see the bison and prairie dogs at the Wichita Wildlife Reserve Park. The prairie dogs are so cute..you just want to bring one of them home :P

Ok Ok.. I shall end here first... ciao!!

School..

2008-04-28T19:30:00.002+07:00

Today shall be the 1st day of class. And my class got the Environmental Science module for the 1st class. It looks fun with the field trips, hopefully.

I was just wondering whether I am really a man pleaser.. Have I been trying to please all my friends throughout this trip instead of being myself? Am I that scared to let my friends know the real me? *sigh* Had some things between my friends and I..is either they arent happy with me or I am not happy with them.. Isnt that part of friendship? For those who know me well, I will keep thinking this matter for a few days... That's what I guess I need to change.. Which is difficult!! I dont even know what I am rambling about here..Maybe I should just get ready for class now...

Take care

Oklahoma City

2008-04-27T22:08:00.003+07:00

I am in Oklahoma City now!! Had a little problem when we checked in. Apparently they didnt have our names in the rooming list :( So, after calls here and there, they managed to squeeze the five of us into a smaller room that we were supposed to get. So, we had to sleep in a king size bed and sofa bed. And today then we were supposed to move to the room that we were supposed to have -.-"

Anyway...will be having orientation at 11am later. Shall get ready now...

San Francisco....

2008-04-26T12:43:00.003+07:00

Here I am in SF... spent a lot of time in hotel..It's pretty scary here around the area in the hotel..There were many homeless around the hotel..So it would be safer for us to stay....

But nevertheless... we did go to the Pier39, Union Square, and Golden Gate Bridge...For more the photos..you can go to www.friendster.com/brillyan

Tomorrow...we shall be in Oklahoma..and will be starting school next monday :( time to get more serious and concentrate on studying now!

Throughout the trip... I get to know more of my friends..but seriously..some of the things are not good yah.. *sigh*

Anyway..I shall post more next time yah..

*enjoyin the last nite in SF*

US trip...

2008-04-25T13:21:00.002+07:00

Have been in US for 8 days now..Havent been really had the time to type something here.. but I shall find some time to post some thing about US here :D

Anyway..right now I am at San Francisco..will be leaving for Oklahoma on Saturday. The weather has been different with each different cities. LA was very cold whenever the wind is blowing. It could get very very cold during the night. Las Vegas was very hot in the afternoon! But during the night, it could get quite windy...As for San Francisco...It was a bit colder than LA when the wind was blowing. So...Can you imagine how the weather was throughout the journey..

Will try to post some pictures in my friendster.. so feel free to come visit my friendster yah ;)

Shall get some sleep now... Nite SF!!

2 more days to go...

2008-04-15T17:23:00.001+07:00

yipeee!! 2 more days to go!! i cant wait till i step to LA :P
US... wait for me yah!!!! :P

Women & Sizes of Body

2008-04-11T16:33:00.003+07:00

I was watching Tyra Show yesterday and the day before. I didnt really watch the whole episode, but I managed to catch at least 1/2 hour of the show. The topic for both episode was about women and sizes of their body. Basically Tyra made an experiment of 10 women on how they would label each other based on their bodies size and also what occupation that would be related to their bodies size. Before they started to label each other, they needed to look at the mirror and said out their thoughts when they were looking at themselves in the mirror.

Anyway, the 2 episodes really made me thinking on how we would label each other based on our body size. Have you ever thought that a skinny person might not want to be skinny at all? Maybe that person had tried everything to gain weight, but he/she was born that way. Or maybe that an obese person didnt want to be the size of him/her now. He/she had tried everything, from exercise and diet, but there was nothing in the result.

How we labeled another persons might leave a very big impact on them. We might not know them.. or they might not know us.. but even as strangers called names on others, the impact will still be big on the psychology side.

There was a news in TODAY today about a French lady minister who were trying to get bill on punishing anyone who tried to get women to lose weight. That was interesting. I am sure that many of us would think that a good looking lady would be the one with a slim body. And I believed that many of us had tried diet (including me!!)

I believed that losing weight is not wrong. We should really know our own body. If we were obese and were not able to do anything because of our body, then we should really think to exercise to lose some weight.. If we knew that our body was unhealthy because of all the fat at the wrong place, we should really start exercising.

What do you think?

Inikah Cinta

2008-03-29T17:41:00.000+07:00

M E-INIKAH CINTA

lagu-lagu jadul

2008-03-29T16:47:00.003+07:00

beberapa music video lagu2 dulu banget... lagu2 kesukaanku ;)
enjoy the music :D

STINKY-JANGAN TUTUP DIRIMU

STINKY-MUNGKINKAH

STINKY-KAULAH YANG PERTAMA

STINKY-CINTA SUCI

BASE JAM-BUKAN PUJANGGA

LINGUA-BILA KUINGAT

LINGUA-TAKKAN HABIS CINTAKU

LINGUA-JANGAN KAU HENTI

NADILA-SALAHKAN AKU

BRAGI-JANJI

i love this music video...

2008-03-28T03:19:00.002+07:00

LETTO - PERMINTAAN HATI
mengharukan ceritanya :'(
i love letto's song...

Ingat Kamu

2008-03-28T02:55:00.000+07:00

Duhhh...ingat kamu terus deh.. hayooo inget sapa yah?

IDOLA CILIK...

2008-03-27T01:13:00.001+07:00

More video clips on Septian and Kiki ;)

SEPTIAN

KIKI

to let go...

2008-03-27T00:57:00.004+07:00

sometimes it's hard to let go of things or someone yah... even when we have already known that he/she is not for us... *sigh*

IDOLA CILIK

2008-03-23T18:15:00.002+07:00

Tadi aku lihat acara Idola Cilik di RCTI... 2 anak yang mendapat giliran terakhir untuk bernyanyi adalah Septian dan Kiki. Duh... 2 anak itu... beneran nda bisa dilupakan bok.. keren abis deh... sampe2 aku nangis ngeliat penampilannya Kiki... takjub banget.. it was just amazing to listen to his beautiful voice. Dia juga ngga malu punya papa yang cacat gara2 kecelakaan.. beneran deh.. i am speechless about him...aku nemuin 1 video pas si Kiki nyanyi..dan 1 video lagi itu si Septian. Hope you all enjoy the videos :)

KIKI

SEPTIAN

Movie and Dinner with Yati

2008-03-23T13:53:00.003+07:00

Had a date with Yati on Thursday at VivoCity. We wanted to watch The Leap Years as it had been ages for both us since we watched movie. But to our horror, the queue was very long, and by the time, we had reached the middle of the queue, the tickets for the movie was sold out. So, in the end, we bought ticket for a movie that we didnt expect to watch, Vantage Point. And.... we had good seats too! in the middle of the row, and they were 3rd from the back. so, we didnt have to strain our neck just to watch the movie.

Anyway, the movie was interesting as it was shown from 6 different point of views. Before stepping into the movie hall, all we knew about this movie was about the shooting of the US president. That's all... But what we didnt know was that it was about 1/2 hour event that was told from 6 different person: the TV channel who was reporting live, the security agent, the local policeman, the president, the US citizen who was having holiday in Spain, and the villain.

Well, moral of the story.... Things never really looked as what it is seen through our eyes. And... dont despise yourself as being the usual citizen, you can do things too :)

Had a great time with Yat... it has been ages since we met. So, we had a lot to catch up. Did that during the dinner at Fig & Olive. Oh... I forgot to take a picture with her :( I just simply love taking pictures yah? :P Well, it is not that I am narcissist (OK... I am) but I just love taking picture for my memory. I want to remember every moment in my life, which I just cant depend too much on my brain :P
Oooppsss... I went away from the topic :P

Anyway, I still had a list of friends to catch up with.
1. Patricia, Grace n Ami
2. ISClub friends
3. Polytechnic classmates
4. Secondary schoolmates
5. Advanded diploma classmates
6. .... (I shall fill in when I remember :P)

OK... so who wants to meet me next?

3 things that I want....

2008-03-22T21:31:00.003+07:00

There are 3 things that I desire right now...
1. Lasik... it's tiring to wear contact lens everyday for the pas 13 years yah..
2. a good camera.. when i have saved up, i really want to get a good camera to company me and capture the things that I see.
3. a trip to teddy bear museum at jeju island. i guess... the prince hours and princess hours teddy bears influenced me too much :P

the list shall continue....

it has been such a long time...

2008-03-17T00:54:00.002+07:00

it has been years since i posted here yah.. so many things had happened throughout the months..there was an event that impacted me very very much.. but i guess life still has to go on yah..sometimes i dont know whether i am really that strong to face it..even though i had tried very hard to forget abt it.. but i guess there would still be time when i would remember abt it.. haix.. i guess no matter what.. he would still have that place in my heart..

God.. give me that strength that You had given me throughout this time.
God.. thank you for Your care throughout this time..
Let this period can be used to mould me to be like what You want me to be Lord.. Let everything that happened can bring glory to You...

disappointment

2007-09-05T01:05:00.000+07:00

learnt a lot by selling IAF tickets.. rejection after rejection.. bayangin.. nda tahu kenapa.. kali ini koq sedih banget kalo ada yang nda mau dateng..ato udah ada yang pesen tp last minute dicancel. aku emang nda bs blame mereka utk cancelin githu..tp tetep aza sedih..padahal kan udah semangat2nya..tp malah 'gugur' 1 by 1.. hix hix... dah githu 'masa' itu lg tiba...emosiku pasti bakalan kacau balau...haiz...2 things to look forward... hari H nya IAF dan balik ke Surabaya... God,please let those days come faster..

Bahasa Indonesia

2007-08-19T23:30:00.000+07:00

One school is also likely to offer Bahasa Indonesia as a third language (http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20070819/tap-singapore-looking-into-setting-up-fo-231650b.html)

Waaaahhh... now you can learn Bahasa Indonesia at school(s)... cool! i am proud of my language!! :D

my journey 2dae...

2007-07-27T23:52:00.000+07:00

todae i had a very interesting dae :P

did assignment from thursday night till friday morning --> went to SIS --> went to Parkway Parade. something happened to Chalid's bah when he was running (a sign???) --> left post office, heavy rain so took a shelter at mcd till 11 plus --> went to Popular --> went home to catch a nap --> a string from one of the construction equipment broke down, and a heavy thing fell down with a loud crash when i was having lunch+dinner --> went to Katong Shopping Centre to bind the assignment --> went to the bus stop at Amber Road to catch a bus to Paya Lebar MRT Station. Bus 43, the 1 i took, brokedown at Tanjong Katong Road --> took MRT from Paya Lebar till Red Hill --> took cab from Red Hill to Jurong West St. 91. Uncle drove very fast!!! --> my new red bag's sling broke down!!! i just used that bag today only :'( exactly something like what i saw happened to chalid --> took MRT home to Paya Lebar --> talked to a Korean lady in the bus stop, her name is Denise. Is there any cute handsome Korean guy that I can talk to?? --> saw a dead rat in the middle of road of Amber Gardens. it was gross as the content of the stomach was outside... yuckss!!!

what a day.....

wondering....

2007-07-26T14:14:00.000+07:00

can soccer unites the country and stops the war???
hopefully...

assignment...

2007-07-24T16:00:00.001+07:00

it has been a month since my last post :P had the mood to write, but i was occupied to do something else ;)
anyway..right now i am rushing for the advertising assignment. have to submit it by this saturday..hohoho..and i am not done with any exexcutions yet hix hix...and my mind is blocked now hix hix...can some1 please help me???

thank God..

2007-06-22T04:13:00.000+07:00

i was reading a blog by chance.. and one thing for sure.. i thank God that there are still many indonesians out there who care about indonesia :) and i do really believe that these people will make a difference in indonesia one day :) isnt that great knowing that there are people beside yourself, who continue thinking, caring and praying for indonesia. we might not know each other... but for sure...we have the same mission :)
jia you people!!

more personality...

2007-06-18T02:32:00.001+07:00

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

how extrovert i am....

2007-06-18T02:06:00.001+07:00

Your Extroversion Profile:

Friendliness: Very High

Cheerfulness: High

Excitement Seeking: High

Sociability: High

Activity Level: Medium

Assertiveness: Low

How Extroverted Are You?

the five factor personality test

2007-06-18T02:00:00.000+07:00

Extroversion:
You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:
You have low conscientiousness.Impulsive and off the wall, you don't take life too seriously.Unfortunately, you sometimes end up regretting your snap decisions.Overall, you tend to lack focus, and it's difficult for you to get important things done.

Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:
You have medium neuroticism.You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is low.You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable.You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea.While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise

the cute elephants..

2007-04-24T23:15:00.000+07:00

i was reading Reader's Digest for the month of April 07 when i came to read about Lek who helped a lot of elephants in Thailand. so.. i visitied the website www.elephantnaturepark.org to find out more about the park. urrghhh... i feel like going there... maybe i should add this to my wishlist :P:P but the stories of the elephants were so touching. one elephant who is blind is being guided by another elephant. they wont leave each other... such a sweet friendship! dont you think so?? well.. maybe 1 day..i should really go there!! anyone wants to company me??? :)

understanding me better :P

2007-04-23T00:17:00.000+07:00

I took a test at http://www.oneishy.com/personality/personality_test.php to check whether i have changed from sanguine melancholy to something else. and the result was.... sanguine phlegmatic.. am i a phlegmatic? i still say that i am more like a melancholy person :P

Weaknesses of a Sanguine
The Extrovert The Talker The Optimist

The Sanguine's Emotions
Compulsive talker
Exaggerates and elaborates
Dwells on trivia
Can't remember names --> true..sorry if i cant remember ur name :(
Scares others off
Too happy for some
Has restless energy
Egotistical
Blusters and complains
Naive, gets taken in
Has loud voice and laugh --> i believe i do have aloud voice :P
Controlled by circumstances
Gets angry easily --> trying to control myself... jia you!!
Seems phony to some
Never Grows Up --> hey!! i grow up! :P

The Sanguine As A Parent
Keeps home in a frenzy
Forgets children's appointments
disorganized
Doesn't listen to the whole story

The Sanguine At Work
Would rather talk --> i am looking for a job that requires me to talk talk and talk :P :P
forgets obligations
Doesn't follow through
Confidence fades fast
Undisciplined --> hix hix.. it's true :(
Priorities out of order --> another one that is soooo me..!
Decides by feelings --> aha!! i am a feeler!
Easily distracted --> cant never concentrate at one thing :X
Wastes time talking --> do i?? :P

The Sanguine As a Friend
Hates to be alone --> i just dont want to be lonely with no one to talk to.. talk too much!
Needs to be center stage --> sounds like the 'leo' side of me yah...
Wants to be popular --> another one that sounds like 'leo'
Looks for credit
dominates conversations
Interrupts and doesn't listen
answers for others
Fickle and forgetful
Makes excuses
Repeats stories

Strengths of a Sanguine
The Extrovert The Talker The Optimist

The Sanguine's Emotions
Appealing personality --> am i appealing to you??
Talkative, Storyteller --> ask my close friends..and they will agree with you
Life of the Party
Good sense of humor
Memory for color
Physically holds on to listener
Emotional and demonstrative --> i am an emotional person.. ask yolla :P
Enthusiastic and expressive
Cheerful and bubbling over
Curious
Good on stage --> huahahhaa.. i get nervous on stage :$
Wide-eyed and innocent
Lives in the present
Changeable disposition
Sincere at heart
Always a child --> of course!! i am always a child to my parents :) and to God too!!

The Sanguine As A Parent
Makes Home Fun
Is liked by children's friends
Turns disaster into humor
Is the circus master

The Sanguine At Work
Volunteers for Jobs --> then you know who you should be looking for :P
thinks up new activities
Looks great on the Surface
Creative and colorful
Has energy and enthusiasm
Starts in a flashy way
Inspires others to join
charms others to work

The Sanguine As a Friend
Makes friends easily
Loves People --> i love every single persons that i meet
Thrives on compliments
Seems exciting
envied by others
Doesn't hold grudges --> trying to.....
apologizes quickly
Prevents dull moments
Likes spontaneous activities

Weaknesses of a Phlegmatic
The Introvert The Watcher The Pessimist

The Phlegmatic's Emotions
Unenthusiastic
Fearful and worried --> i do sometimes...
Indecisive
Avoids responsibility
Quiet will of iron
Selfish
To shy and reticent --> soooo not me!
Too compromising
Self-righteous

The Phlegmatic As A Parent
Lax on discipline --> i am an undisciplined person :(
Doesn't organize home
Takes life to easy

The Phlegmatic At Work
Not goal oriented
Lacks self motivation
Hard to get moving
Resents being pushed
Lazy and careless --> huh?? careless yah... lazy..sometimes..kekee
Discourages others --> opposites of my sanguine personality?
Would rather watch --> so not me! i prefer do than watch

The Phlegmatic As a Friend
Dampens enthusiasm --> am i?
Stays uninvolved --> i love to involve in everything kekekee...
Is not exciting --> another opposite of my sanguine?
Indifferent to plans
Judges others --> trying not to..
Sarcastic and teasing
Resists change --> if it is for better... why not?

Strengths of a Phlegmatic
The Introvert The Watcher The Pessimist

The Phlegmatic's Emotions
Low-key personality
Easygoing and relaxed
Calm, cool and collected
Patient well balanced
Consistent life
Quiet but witty
Sympathetic and kind
Keeps emotions hidden
Happily reconciled to life
All-purpose person --> sounds like the contact lens cleaning solution :P

The Phlegmatic As A Parent
Makes a good parent
Takes time for the children
Is not in a hurry
Can take the good with the bad
Doesn't get upset easily

The Phlegmatic At Work
Competent and steady
Peaceful and agreeable
Has administrative ability --> was that why i was chosen as secretary for a lot of times?:P
Mediates problems
Avoids conflicts --> who loves conflict?
Good under pressure --> i am not!!
Finds the easy way

The Phlegmatic As a Friend
Easy to get along with --> what do you think, my friends?
Pleasant and enjoyable
Inoffensive
Good listener --> i am trying to be one... hopefully i can be 1...
Dry sense of humor
Enjoys watching people
Has many friends
Has compassion and concern

what i want to do...

2007-04-21T00:09:00.000+07:00

list of what i want to do....

go to BALI!!! (it has been A LOT OF YEARS since i touched bali for the last time)
explore the whole Indonesia...i believe that Indonesia has a lot of nice places to explore and they are waiting to be discover :) any1 wants to join in?
go to hongkong -> i had been to disneyland at california, orlando and japan. left with hongkong and france :P
go to europe, korea.... hm..any countries that i left out?
diving/snorkeling --> i want to see the creations of GOd that live in the sea :D
parasailing -> how does it feel to fly?
rafting
buggy jumping maybe?? :P when one day, i am daring enuff :P
the new ferris wheel at marina!!! hohohoo.. cant wait to ride that...with some1 special :D (not necessary him... as long as they are special to me...;) are you the special 1?? :P)

when i remember more things to do... i shall add more :P

thoughts on what happened in US...

2007-04-18T01:03:00.000+07:00

some of you might know what was happening over at the US yesterday. 33 people were killed in Virginia Tech University. Apparently, the investigation showed that a Korean student who was the shooter and he killed himself after the incident ended.

The article that I read in http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/afp_asiapacific/view/270916/1/.html said that the shooter was a lonely man. It made me think what his reason was in doing all this. Stress? Rejected or bullied by his peers? Call me a CSI fanatic, but i did learn things from the series. There was one episode about how a man was killed by five persons in the aeroplane (dont ask me which 1...i cant remember the episode's title now :P) it happened because the man was having headache as he was having allergy when he was at certain heights. when he couldnt handle his headache, he started to act wierdly and the people around him tried to stop him and accidentially killed him. at the end of the episode, the CSIs were discussing what they would be doing if they were in the passengers' shoes. and i loved what Grissom said...it took five persons to stop him, but it took only one person to care and ask him about his condition. which is true!! sometimes, we just dont care about the persons beside us. maybe something bad wont happen if we take one moment to just ask and care about these people.

There was one time when i took bus from orchard to home. When i passed Plaza Singapura, i saw a man was lying down on the pavement and he looked very bad. His girlfirend (i assumed she was his girlfriend...there were only 2 of them) was so confused and didnt know what to do. so she ran to the nearest 7-eleven at the dhoby ghaut mrt station. i could see from the bus that no one tried to stop from what they were doing and tried to help him. (on the rest of the journey, i was worried for him...how i wish i just alighted there and help them... i could see from their appearance that they were not local, my guess was that they came from china) i couldnt blame those people who didnt stop...anyway, it was their choice. but if something bad happened to him, wouldnt we regret for not helping him? foreigners in a foreign country who did not know anyone... i could understand that feeling.. after all, i am still called a foreigner in Singapore :P

anyway, how i wished that the shooting massacre didnt happen. 33 people just gone like that... maybe we should start to make a difference once again in other people??

Here another personality test..

2007-04-17T03:15:00.000+07:00

Your Type is ESFP
Extraverted 78%
Sensing 25%
Feeling 62%
Perceiving 33%

ESFP type description by D.Keirsey
ESFP type description by J. Butt
Career Choices for Your Type

Qualitative analysis of your type formula

You are:
- very expressed extravert
- moderately expressed sensing personality
- distinctively expressed feeling personality
- moderately expressed perceiving personality1

Extraverted Sensing Feeling Perceiving by Joe Butt

"Where's the party?" ESFPs love people, excitement, telling stories and having fun. The spontaneous, impulsive nature of this type is almost always entertaining. And ESFPs love to entertain -- on stage, at work, and/or at home. Social gatherings are an energy boost to these "people" people.

SPs sometimes think and talk in more of a spider-web approach. Several of my ESFP friends jump from thought to thought in mid-sentence, touching here or there in a manner that's almost incoherent to the listener, but will eventually cover the waterfront by skipping on impulse from one piece of information to another. It's really quite fascinating.

New! ESFPs are attracted to new ideas, new fashions, new gadgets, new ______. Perhaps it's the newness of life that attracts ESFPs to elementary education, especially to preschool and kindergarten.

ESFPs love to talk to people about people. Some of the most colorful storytellers are ESFPs. Their down-to-earth, often homespun wit reflects a mischievous benevolence.
Almost every ESFP loves to talk. Some can be identified by the twenty minute conversation required to ask or answer a simple factual question.

Functional Analysis:
Extraverted Sensing

The dominant function of ESFPs is concerned with the reality that is perceived through the senses. This type's prime directive is to examine the tangible through taste, touch, sight, feeling and hearing. ESFPs' need for new experiences surely results from this function. Feeling gives focus to the collected information, producing the amiable nature of this type. As perceivers, ESFPs do not linger on moral concerns unless it is in service of a Greater Good and/or a unifying cause.

Introverted Feeling

Feeling, which tends to decision-making in the interest of individual beings, is auxiliary to sensing. As with all introverted functions, feeling for ESFPs has a surreal, cryptic, quintessential nature. It is more often implied than verbally expressed, more apparent in countenance and deed rather than word or creed. Feeling takes care that playful pokes and pranks do no harm to the victim.

Extraverted Thinking

This tertiary function is at the ready to give definitive answers when the world requires them. It provides a measure of balance to Introverted Feeling, allowing the ESFP some level of boundary and protection from those who would take advantage. When overused or overestimated, however, Thinking becomes a liability. ESFPs do well to seek out confirmation of the soundness of tough-minded decisions.

Introverted iNtuition

This function is least visible. As is the nature of the inferior (fourth) function, ESFP intuition lacks a sense of balance. This type seems most successful in deducing patterns and seeing connections only after a thorough examination of the facts (which process appears quite unorganized and haphazard to non-SPs). Although some ESFPs may develop such abilities, the mastery of logic, analysis and abstraction is usually difficult and wearying, and not very much fun.

Famous ESFPs:
Saint Mark (Christ's disciple), Dale Evans, Gracie Allen, Bob Hope, Eva Gabor, Willard Scott, Goldie Hawn, Kyle Petty, Arsenio Hall, Mary Lou Retton, Kathy Lee Gifford. Steve Irwin, Woody Harrelson (Cheers)

Fictional ESFPs:
Tim "The Toolman" Taylor(Home Improvement), Cody (Step By Step), Mrs. Pumphrey (James Herriot, All Creatures Great and Small)

Personality Test

2007-04-17T03:06:00.000+07:00

Personality Test Results

Our basic personality can be summed up in four descriptions: Director, Cheerleader, Investigator and Caregiver.

Your Scores:

Director 20%
Cheerleader 28%
Investigator 20%
Caregiver 32%

As children of God we know that we have been created by Him and for Him. We are individuals, each uniquely designed. In our uniqueness we also have commonalities because we have the same Creator. Because we are human many times our differences can present challenges in effectively communicating with others.

We each communicate with others based upon our perception of the world around us. This sometimes clouds the message that we both send and receive. Through an understanding of our commonalities and differences we can increase this effectiveness. In addition, through the love of Christ that we can each experience, we all have the ability to communicate through our differences.

some pictures to show off :P

2007-04-16T23:30:00.000+07:00

took this on 130407 at Heeren

when else we got the chance to sit on this type of car.. (di indo kayaknya nda sekeren ini deh mobilnya :P)

the view from my seat during the Healing Service by Pst Benny Hinn at Singapore Indoor Stadium

Deby and Brillyan before the service started

Roy and Shandy with their big glass of drink

Sendy couldnt bring it home...only could take photo with it..

Brillyan and Sendy at Fish n Co at Wheelock Place. Good food, good place and last but not least, good companions!

thank God

2007-04-11T20:46:00.000+07:00

today i dont really feel that well.. i think i got 'masuk angin' (=enter wind??) didnt really have a good sleep last night. but in the afternoon, i took a longggggggg nap.

well... really wanna thank God todae that i could concentrate in reading the textbook without my mind flying to everywhere :) and also..thanks to my bro in batam who made me laughing with his sms.. with my textbook and sms..i didnt feel lonely at all :D instead of thinking what i miss, i should be appreciating what is in front of me right... shldnt i?

2007-04-10T23:44:00.001+07:00

jangan salahkan aku kalo kadang-kadang aku hanya ingin dimanja...

some easter pictures...

2007-04-09T02:49:00.000+07:00

we took this picture when shandy was sleeping beside me

roy doesnt like perfect picture, so he decided to spoil the picture -_-"

in the mrt, on the way home

roy couldnt wait to use his PINK umbrella

the sweet ladies :D

roy, sendy, brilly just before the easter service

the lighting is just perfect to take some pictures

roy took this.. and he left sendy out of the picture!

here i am... back at my blog

2007-04-09T02:39:00.000+07:00

hellloooooooo.... i am wondering..is there still someone out there reading my blog? hahahaa... eniwei.. just in case there is still someone out there, thank you for reading my blog!!!
what should i sae...? Happy Easter!!! Yup yup!!! Jesus Christ has risen from the dead!! Halleluya!
Cant stay too long here.. Just changed my blog skin to freshen it up. the cows had been working too long.. it is time to let them rest :D
Better go now... shall share some stories with ya next time k? take care!!

about me according to the web

2007-02-01T00:25:00.000+07:00

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The Real You
Here is the analysis:

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:

Kind and GentleYour kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 65%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Jealousy Test

Jealousy Level: 55%
You are a jealous person but you try not to let it showYou often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.

Cinderella
How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?
You tend to adopt traditional roles of a fine woman. You listen to what your husband tell you attentively and enjoy being guided and led by him.

not in the mood of doing assignment...

2007-01-31T01:17:00.000+07:00

supposed to be doing my assignment now.. havent written a single word at all!! woaaahhh.. i just dont have the mood now :(

furthermore.. i couldnt catch csi at chn5 just now.. duh..! all because of the wind that made the picture blurry and something it is missing! duh...!

how how how?? i need to force myself to read the book! i just cant understand anything abt the book :( and supposed to find 3 book reviews abt the book also... huaaaaaa. ce me pan!! only left wed, thur, and fri to do everything finish :(

jia you brill! dont be so lazy!! jia you jia you!!

thank God for todae! :D

2007-01-29T01:48:00.000+07:00

didnt sleep well throughout the night (ok.. morning.. slept from 430am - 900am :( ) woke up for a lot of times.. there was no peacefulness in my sleep. i guess i am worrying too much for certain things, especially my assignment. almost cancelled my appointment with friends.. but got the strength to wake up on time.. especially when roy had sent me an sms asking whether i had already woken.. hohoho..took my time to shower and getting ready.. but in the end.. i still had to wait for them -_-" God really tested my patience on waiting for people. i guessed that coz i always made people wait :P

really blessed by the sermon that was delivered by Pst. Jeffry Rachmat and the praise and worship that was led by GMB. Pst. Jeffry talked abt vision.. he quoted Hellen Keller.. "the worse thing of not having sight is having no vision." when we closed our eyes, what we would see? darkness? or something that you see in the future? really.. vision would guide you to enter into the future.

i really thanked God for today.. He gave me peacefulness and joy inside of me. even though i was angry for a while.. but it didnt last long. He restored back my joy and peacefulness in me. it's really a choice to be grumpy all the day long or to be joyful all day. i could choose not to leave everything to God and blamed everything.. but i was glad that i didnt do that :D

i did enjoy myself today.. especially with a bunch of cheerful and lovely companion of yolla, roy and shandy. with them, i am really who i am, no mask covering me whenever i am with them. thank God for such friends whom He put in my life :D even though my feets were aching at the end of the day... but it was worthwhile!!

the strong wind at jurong east mrt station

there is always time to take some pics even when we are waiting for train

oh dear.. a before and after picture?? spot the differences!

we were the last one to left the place coz we couldnt bear not taking more pics

hand-in-hand in facing the path ahead

visiting shandy at his new house

the 1st pic we took.. we were still look nice and neat

last but not least.. a pic of us at bugis..!

there are actually more pictures but they are in yolla's camera.. when you have a good hp with a good camera and new camera.. everywhere you go, you will take pics. yolla's camera and hp seem like being own by 4 of us :P

love you all! :D

my assignment is still in progress

2007-01-26T15:30:00.000+07:00

hohohohoo... 1 more week before i am free from politic, economy, america and the future. and now is the time to struggle with my assignment. most of you might be wondering.. woahhh brillyan becomes so hardworking that she started her assignment 1 week earlier.. duhh.. how i wish i can do it last minute as my brain works better doing last minute assignment :P but i cant help it. the assignment and exam require me to read 2 books and 3 book reviews. how to finish it???? duuuhhhh.... never mind.. struggle now.. have fun later! :D

Thanks Be To God

2007-01-22T02:37:00.000+07:00

saw an advertisement at newton with the saying "Fully Sold. Thanks Be To God" I just love the advertisement! Guess.. who owns the site.. LIPPO GROUP! amazing! Thanks God for such a company. You know what.. one day.. I should do that too! Be it I am in the advertising line.. or if according to God's will, I might event have a big company :P all glory to God!!!

cant understand...

2007-01-15T23:06:00.000+07:00

cant understand why some people just love to turn on their music on their mobile phone so loud, even when they are alone. had the experience when i was on the bus 197 on the way home from ica building. worst, the guy was just beside me. all i did was staring at him and turn my mp4 player louder to cover the music. i guess some people also disliked the sound that one of them chose to move from his seat :P well.. to the guy.. here is a good advice, save some money to buy your mobile phone's headset. :D

temptation

2007-01-11T23:02:00.000+07:00

i was very tempted to be angry at everyone and everything today. not sure what had happened to me.. it started when i was waiting for a bus to go to the united square. i told my friend that i would be late and she told me to go straight to juntion 8 to meet them. i was quite pissed off as i would only be late not later than 1/2 hour and they couldnt even wait. and eventually, i reached junction 8 earlier than them. my friend knew that i was pissed off, so she apologized when another friend wasnt around. it was so easy to bring up all the past hurt... throughout the journey to junction 8.. how many times i thought of the times when i had to wait for her for a long time. and she couldnt even wait for me for a while.

on the way to the mrt to go back home, i told her bluntly that i regretted to go all the way to junction 8. partly cause i was still in my bad mood.. and also, i was disappointed on some things that even me myself couldnt understand. i thought that.. i went all the way to junction 8, walking thru the rain.. even though i brough umbrella, i was still wet, and i wasnt even sure what was the purpose of me going to junction 8 *sigh* it was just so easy to be angry at everything.

thru out the journey, i just told myself to be patient.. kept on praying to God that i wont flare up at others... well, thank God i didnt flare up at anyone till i reached home.

another temptation to be angry came during the journey inside the bus 36 on the way home. i sat at the wrong place! there was water dripping from the bus' ceiling above me -_-" aiyoooo...i couldnt even sleep cause it 'attacked' me from front and behind. i think that everyone was looking at me.. cause no matter what i didnt move from that seat :P i had no choice coz there was no more space for me to stand up. so i bear with the water thru out the journey. i used the plastic bag that i had to prevent the water to drip to my pants :P no idea how come i became so smart to come up with that idea :P thru out the incident, whenever the water dripped at me successfully, i would just smile. hahaha.. i had no idea why i did that :P

felt like walking in the rain from bus stop to home. but i knew that i couldnt do that. i am having flu.. so i cant afford to be sicker.. i still have plans for tml, sat and sun...cant be sick! maybe next time then walk in the rain..

feel much better now.. but i still need something.. someone's hug.. any volunteer? huahauha..

Taken from "Do You Think I'm Beautiful?" by Angela Thomas

2006-11-23T00:28:00.000+07:00

"If you could only grasp how wide and how long and how high and how deep. Then you'd know, yes, I really love you.

Do you wonder if you are too far away from Me, My love is wider still.

Do you think that you've been away too long, My love will wait longer.

Do you believe that no one would ever want someone like you, My love is higher than all the others.

Have you been sure that you are too far gone? My love is deep enough to reach even you.

You cannot fall past My love,

You cannot outrun My love,

You cannot reach the end of My love

It is wide and long and high and deep enough for you..."

I'm in Surabaya!!

2006-11-14T01:33:00.000+07:00

Urgh.. I am shld be sleeping now.. but part of me wanted to post something first before i got to sleep even though my eyes are tired and are in pain..so, i decided to type something here before i find my prince charming :D

it has been one week since i reached surabaya. has not really been to many places, except rs mitra keluarga (family's partner hospital) a lot of times. my grandma has been hospitalised since last friday. praying hard that she would be ok soon and be discharged soon. has been visiting her almost everyday (except sunday) since the day 1. and i am glad to report that she is getting well :D at least, she can eat more things that she was at her home.

oh yah.. i am now a proud owner of toyota yaris.. huehehee.. have been driving it for a lot of times now. hm.. shld take the photo of it yah.. never mind.. i owe you the photo of it k? :P so far.. havent crashed into anything yet.. well, almost :$ but thank God it didnt really happen. let's see.. what's inside my car.. i can sae.. it's a bit messy :$ i just left my textbook at the back just like that.. hehee.. convenient :P and.. i have my 7 dwarfs to company me at the back of the car plus a tissue holder bear. i am resisting myself to add anymore soft toys :P it's just so tempting to put more soft toys :$ eniwei.. havent really parked the car myself. there is always someone there to guide me.. still nervous about it.. hohhoho.. soon soon.. i will be able to park the car myself *praying hard*

what else what else.... hmm.. somehow surabaya feels wierd with yolla not around. just so used to having yolla around to drive hehehe.. and going out a lot with her. was thinking about it.. i guess by next year, yolla and most of my friends here will be working. then.. i would be the one stunned in surabaya doing nothing :P

well well.. i really cant take it anymore.. my eyes are hurting :( so not me of feeling tired at this time..anyway.. gotta sleep now.. waking up early tml to visit my grandma.. hopefully i am nt lazy enuff to keep all of you updated :P ciaoz!

excited!!

2006-11-05T03:30:00.000+07:00

it's always exciting to go back to my hometown... cant wait till monday.. i am counting down now... 5 4 3 2 1!!!

catching up

2006-09-25T23:34:00.000+07:00

thank God that I made the decision to call my mom and chatted with her. It has been a while since we last chatted. Yup.. Had a great time talking to her.. From what happened recently till about boys! Yup.. at my age.. we had already started to talk about my future husband. An advice from her was that.. try to find a man who is the youngest in the family.. well, cause I am the eldest among my siblings :P Anyway.. leave everything to God for this matter. I know He has reserved the best one for me! Amen! :D

Anyway.. hasnt been updating about myself nowadays.. I am having holiday AGAIN! till 11 December 2006. Will be having my exam on 30 October 2006. And planning to go back Surabaya in November.. Yipeee..! Cant wait till then... Friends in Surabaya.. wait for me k??????

Till then, I shall busy myself with whatever things that I can be busy with.

well.. I shall log off now.. ciaoz!!

It's Raining!!

2006-09-15T14:38:00.000+07:00

How many times we complained... God, It's so hot!!! Oh No God..! It's raining!! Human.. so difficult to satisfy.. yup! including me.. When it is hot, I would complain that it is too hot.. when it is raining.. I would complain that the rain hinders my acitivity.

Well.. must really start to be bless the Lord whatever day it is. When it is hot.. Thank God we still have heat.. When it is raining, well, thank God for the rain to cool the weather..

Teach me Lord to thank You in whatever situation I am....

sigh

2006-08-10T23:29:00.000+07:00

i am tired for being misunderstood..

we serve You. not You serve us

2006-07-29T00:54:00.000+07:00

yes... how many times most of us forget that we serve Him..and not He serves us... ;)

long holiday

2006-07-27T13:26:00.000+07:00

yes! i am complaining that i am having way too long for holiday. this is just the beginning..cant imagine that i will be having a lot of this kind of holiday till i graduate *sigh* not that i dont like to have holiday, but if it is too long, it makes me think wierdly. and by the time school starts, i will be too lazy to do anything.

anyway.. i did some cleaning on my room (i also wonder the lazy me become hardworking in cleaning my room) i was clearing all the cards that i posted on my table. decided to change the way my table looks like (well, it looks very clean and empty without the cards) when i took out the cards, i took time to read again all the wishes in the card. and you know what... when i had packed everything, i started to cry. it's all tepen's fault for passing the melan virus to me *hmph*

well, to be honest.. i think i am in one of my lowest point of my life (yes! finally.. i admit it!) blame it to the long holiday that makes me think wierd things :P have been questioning myself a lot recently. somehow my future becomes blur.. seems like i dont know what i want to do anymore. i did question God.. what He really wants from me. my melan side controlled me for the past few days..

when i was packing the cards and photos, i was feeling lonely. i thank God that i didnt throw the cards away. somehow those cards gave me the encouragement. there was one card from sis claire saying that i am not alone, God is there to watch over me. the moment i read that card, i bursted into tears. out of so many cards, that card left a deep impression till now.

and now i just wanted to did something.. i wanted to give this message to these specific people...

melissa from jtband, clarinet section - hey girl! how are you? i was reading the bdae wish card that you gave me years back. *shrugs* i havent been a good sister yah.. well, wondering how you are doing now. must been doing good over in aussie yah.. do take care!

8 sisters - how are you all doing? i just sent mass sms to those of you who are in singapore. well, only 3 of u replied.. i met yati, audrey and ginny. wondering about the rest of you. especially RITA!!! you didnt pick up my call and didnt reply my sms. my dear, where are you? are you ok? *sigh* Astrid... when are you coming to singapore? Ratna.. sorry that i didnt meet you up when you were in singapore. my parents were here, so i neeeded to company them. wish you all the best in jakarta with your work. Yuri.. you are another girl whom i havent met for so long. what are you doing now? still busy with your clarinet?

ci ena - i still keep the small note that you gave me when i had exam. it was so sweet of you giving nass and me an exam package. with the greedy me, within 2 days, whatever inside the package was inside my stomach :P havent been catching up with you.. jia you for your work!!

SP -ISCF - i still kept the card from all of you for my birthday. and you know what.. it dated 2 years back..hahaha.. how time flied yah.. most of you who wrote in the card had graduated from sp. really thankful for each one of you.. and i still keep the present nicely in the box ;)

grace - my buket! hahahhaa.. how are you bu? the last time i saw you was when kak lena came to sg. it was also a brief moment. havent been catching up with you. i shall organize a meal with you and pat2 soon :) wait for my sms yah.. heheee..

christine limantoro - i still have the xmas wish card that you sent to me.. heee.. wondering where you are right now..we havent been meeting each other for a very long time. hopefully, one day, we will be able to meet up :)

etta - just met up with you last month. but still not enuff :P just chatted with you..and you were watching korean drama :P dont cry when you watch it yah..hahahaa..

yolla - havent received your reply. must be busy doing stuff in jakarta. so envy of you to get to travel again. *sigh* can i follow? i also want to travel!!! put me in your luggage? i promise i will lose weight :D

cassandra, fenny, jennifer, devi - i hope that i get the 4 of u right from the card. lol. it was a 17th bdae card from the four of you. i noe devi, cassan dan fenny are still in singapore.. and jennifer still in usa? well..do take care yah all of you...

fenny, mel, wenda, yudi - my long lost irc friends :P all of you now are in aussie? well.. how are you all? hope all of you are doing great :)

N215 - a card made by rach. thank you for giving me a great family... :)

did i miss anyone? hopefully not.. hahaa.. STM (short-term memory)... i just didnt want to take the cards out again from the box :P (not lazy lah..just that..erer..later cry how?)
better go now.. have been in front of the laptop for too long. i better rest my eyes.. *ciaoz*

swollen face

2006-07-21T23:37:00.000+07:00

extracted 4 wisdom teeth on thursday. the gums were swollen so i had difficulty in eating. have to eat plain porridge for the next few days :( the good news is that.. i can eat ice cream as much as i can. but then.. can only eat those plain ice cream..not with the fillings :(
okie.. i better take my medicine now.. see ya all! ciaoz!

something to share...

2006-07-20T01:22:00.000+07:00

havent been updating my blog.. my parents are in singapore since saturday.. so i have been busy companying them..well, beside that.. i managed to meet marietta on friday and also went to the International Nite 2006 on saturday. shall share some photos of the events with you all.. oh yah.. i also went to bukit timah hill for hiking with my parents.. it was a great experience.. but.. it would be more fun in indonesia, as the venue changes every week. well, in bukit timah hill, you have a fixed route. that's the difference... kind of lost my patience during international nite 06.. after the whole event.. the alumni were waiting there for nothing.. okok..we were waiting for andrew to go for supper.. ehh.. wait.. i have no idea who we were waiting for :P anyway.. what i wanted to share was that.. the organizer didnt really clear up the whole place. at first, wei hong and some of the guys started to help up in moving the chairs away. then..wei hong helped to take off the balloons at the back.. even at that time, the organizers and helpers didnt get the hint at all. so when wei hong used a pencil to burst the balloons, i got frustrated and told the rest of the alumni that we better did something if we did not want to wait till tomorrow morning. so in the end, we bursted all the balloons and cleared up the rubbsih.. which didnt take us 1/2 hour to do all that. and even in the end, no1 seemed like got the hint.. *shrugs* alumni went there to clear up the place... and wait till u ask me about the whole event.. we didnt get a good seat! *shrug* okieee..better stop my compalaining here.. before i ended saying every details of everything :P

Messy-hair Me and My Father @ Bukit Timah

My Mother and Sweating Me @ Bukit Timah

The Alumni of ISClub

The 3 Pretty Ladies

Brillyan and Mee Ling during International Nite 06 @ NP

Brillyan and Yi Shyuan during International Nite 2006 @ NP

Etta, Metta and Brillyan @ Paragon's Toilet

do you call this art? :P

Brillyan and Marietta @ Heeren

Well.. gotta to go.. going to have my 4 wisdom teeth extracted later.. a bit scared :$ ciaoz!

superman returns!

2006-07-08T01:13:00.000+07:00

watched 'superman returns' at cineleisure with the guys just now. hm.. didnt really like the movie.. but love the actor though. he was a handsome man!! well, i agreed that i paid just to watch the handsome actor, not for the movie. hahhaaa..i just cant believe the ending :P well, some of lines that they used sounded like they took it from the Bible hahaha.. but of course! superman is not human's saviour!

anyway.. still doing my assignment at this hour. i am sleepy *yawnz*

a word in season

2006-07-07T00:14:00.000+07:00

sis claire shared about disappointment in cell group meeting todae. well, word in season yah... just had disappointment with a person this week. but thank God that everything is okie now... :)

in the end...

2006-07-05T23:39:00.000+07:00

FINALLY!!! i have made a decision.. hahhaaa.. i just have to share this first before i can concentrate in my assignment..

what decision? yup.. about the matter that had been bothering me since the beginning of arts and our world class. i decided not to be bothered by the matter anymore. since she is more comfortable with her new friend, then let her be. is not that i cant live without her in my life. is not that i dont call her my friend anymore. but if there is a level of friendship, she is just been downgraded by me in my life! :P (do i sound so mean?)

well, i learnt to this decision as today i experienced something. i decided to have lunch together with them. but, it was a mistake, even though i thought that i gave myself a chance. throughout the journey, i just didnt enjoy it. i felt so lonely and uncomfortable. they were talking things that i just couldnt understand. in the end, i was there to watch the scenary. it had been sometimes since i passed bukit merah area :P

but through this experience, i learnt things. like what i told a friend of mine, there is a time when you know who your true friends are. and also i told her that, surely beside you, there are people who care for you, is just whether you want to open your eyes to see them or not. you might say that no one cares for you, but those friends beside you have been trying to be there for you. well... must really open our eyes big big :)

some of you might be wondering, why i bother about friendship thingy so much. well.. now you know me more..! ;) i am the person who really think hard about friendship. in my life, my 1st priority is God, then family and then friends. even if i have boyfriend, i might still put my priority more to my friends, cause i know that they stand by me no matter what happens. well, thank God, for me, i dont need to fight between boyfriend and friends huahuaaa..(that's 1 thing abt being single :P)

i wanna take this chance to thank my princess (i am not les :P).. thank you for answering my call and listening to me just now. it felt great after letting everything out to you. love ya!! also want to thank my friend who is so faaaarrrr in surabaya. thanks for replying my sms... miss ya and love ya!

better go back to my assignment now.. *ciaoz*

...what i should do...

2006-07-04T22:37:00.000+07:00

after attended the IGCF exco's meeting just now, it strucked me back about my ministry. on the way home, i was thinking that i havent done a good job! *shrugs*

what i need to do now is to really sit down and evaluate my ministry. and really plan what i should do for the next step. like what Pst Kong has always share, never plan means you plan to fail. i guess now is the time.. especially after exam this saturday i will have a lot of time, since it is holiday..

anyone wants to sit down with me? lol.. i am the person who need someone to do it together with me. if i do it alone, i would do it halfway and will never finish it :P well, time to force myself to sit down and really think about it.

jia you brillyan!

for all my friends!

2006-07-03T16:22:00.000+07:00

what is my vision?

2006-07-02T21:15:00.000+07:00

the message by Pst Tan YP duing the weekend service was powerful! it was really a great way to end the service in Hall 1 for the pas 4 weeks. As what Xuelin said to the cg members, moving back to hall 8 means we are moving to another level. i really cant wait to go there next week!anyway, before i get too excited, i shall share more things with you all.

"A man without vision is a man without future." how would you respond to that? :P well, i am totally agreeeee! everyone of us has a vision of what we will be in the future.

listening to the message.. it made me thinking again.. what is my vision? so many things that i want to do.. but everytime, half way, i always gave up. that is so bad! as what sis jiaying shared for the cell grp on thurs, commitment comes first and the promotion. if i cant commit myself to the vision, how i am supposed to do greater things for God? so.. what is important now is to find back the vision from God and really commit myself to the vision.

i had a vision from God yesterday. the flash of picture of 2 hands holding each other in my mind has been 'disturbing' me for a lot of time. usually, i would just put that picture aside as i thought that i was just too desperate to hold some1's hand.. uahuahuaa.. but God showed me another thing. i finally understand what He was trying to say. He wanted to tell me that He wants to work together with me. the other hand that i am holding is His hand. He wants to walk and work together with me. it made me realise that how many time i had walked alone. depending on my own strength. i had totally forgotten that there was someone there who had been wanting to share things with me. i gues.. i have learnt my lesson.

anyway.. going to update the cell group's blog.. so.. going now.. *ciaoz*

things that i cant understand

2006-06-29T10:49:00.000+07:00

there are things that i cant understand..maybe i am not supposed to know.. haix..

i guess i am just thinking too much.. cause i am just too tired..i shldnt think abt this too much.. oh dear.. but i guess.. it cant be help as almost everyday i see the person. well, when it is holiday, i hope that i am able to forget everything...

*ciaoz*

reunion

2006-06-27T11:42:00.000+07:00

last saturday, i was invited for cindy's 21st bithday celebration. a little bit about cindy, we were classmates during our sec3 and sec4 time. we were also the only girl student councillor in 4e2. we were close once.. but after our graduation from sec sch, we didnt really contact each other. pretty surprised when she sent sms to invite me for her birthday celebration. so touched that she still remembers me :)

anyway, i went to east coast park after my church's service. i was not sure who would be there. i was thinking that i would just drop by for a while. and when i stepped into the lobby of the chalet, i saw familiar faces. yup! there were my secondary school mates there. audrey, jarred, june, kailin, ginny, huiling...and at the chalet, i met with some of the secondary sch friends too... there were yu soon, domenic, freddy, jeannete, edmund, ah boon, stanley, yi shyuan. it made me realise how long we have not been meeting each other. since we graduated from sec sch, i didnt contact them at all. well..there was a happy feeling to really see them..

everyone of us now is going to different paths. but one thing i know that you all, my friends, are always in my heart forever! let's have a reunion.. shall we?

jealousy.pimple

2006-06-25T00:15:00.000+07:00

every one of us surely have felt jealous before. if you have never felt jealous before, do let me know, i would like to have a friend who has never been jealous before :P

recently, i do feel jealous. there is a friend who was quite close to me. i would say that last time we would do a lot of things together. i do not know what happened recently. when i came back from indonesia, there was something different about her. i just felt that the closeness between her and me was gone. she actually preferred to spend her time with another friend. yes! i do feel jealous...! maybe because i just used to spend time with her. and seeing her with another friend, makes me want to spend time with her also. not that she doesnt spend time with me, but the feeling is not there. there was one time when she was with me and another friend, we were looking around together at art museum for class. her 'good friend' reached late and was alone, so she went to company her 'good friend' without even saying anything to us. just left us like that. even when we were dismissed, she didnt say anything to us. she just gone like that. i didnt even bother to look for her. there was anger and jealous at that time.

well, feel much better after typing this entry. i did not tell anyone about this. but i know my friend knows that she changed. well, at least, there is another person who feels the same thing :P

oh yah, i just know that pimple can actually grow in legs :P i just found one pimple in my thigh. it is quite big :( it looked like a mosquito bite this morning, but when i changed to shorts at night, it turned to a pimlple. amazing! :P

ok.. better go now. need to take rest as tomorrow will be going around to do a group project with the girls. nitez.. *muachz*

some photos to share

2006-06-22T23:51:00.000+07:00

Brillyan & Yolla

Surabaya, 17 June 2006 - Brillyan, Yolla, Wongso, Sancai, Darwin, Hendra

Brillyan. Yolla. Etta

Surabaya, family and friends, God's plan, friendship

2006-06-22T23:07:00.000+07:00

I had fun during my stay in Surabaya. Ate a lot though, but thank God, I did not gain weight at all (i think so :P) Thank God for the products such as phyto fiber :P I ate crabs for four times, 2 times with my family, the other 2 with my friends. crabs are wonderful!! just the taste of the meat.. ouuu.. so nice! thank God for tongue that can taste different tastes!

anyway, really thank God for the family and friends that I have. It is really a great blessing to be in part of my family and to have great friends around :) I cant just stop thanking God for all the things in my life.

oh yah.. talked about this thing with Yolla before. we might plan a lot of things, but the ultimate plans will be God's plans for us. but we are human, we might get disappointed when our plan doesnt work. for example, i had planned that i would be able to graduate by the end of next year. but now, i can only finish my course in may 2008. at first, i couldnt accept it at all. i started to complain here and there... but now i am starting to accept it. i believe that God has planned something for me that allows me to graduate only in 2008. when may 2008 comes, i might know why God allows it to happen :) i really do believe that everything that happens is for a reason, for God's glory.

cant wait for Yolla, Etta and Christin to come to Singapore. Yolla will be staying in Singapore for 6 months, while Etta and Christin will be staying for a while. really looking forward to meet them. cant get enough to meet them :) like what sis zhuomin shared during cell group meeting just now, there are 3 group of friends. the 1st group is so called the 'hi and bye' friends. we dont really talk to them about our life, we might not even remember their names. the 2nd group is those we hang out together because we have same interest. most probably, we meet them only for dinner, or just for movie. or might be because we like shopping so we shop together. the last group is what we call our best friend. we share everything with them, our dreams and visions, our secrets, our ups and downs.

ok.. i better go now. havent taken a shower yet. just ended the bbq session with the cell groups just now. tomorrow need to get up early to clear the bbq pit and go to harbour front.. take care!

I Am An Angel!

2006-06-01T00:49:00.000+07:00

You're an Angel!

What's Your Goddess Identity?
Brought to you by Tickle

2006-04-18T02:42:00.000+07:00

Aku Datang Untukmu

Jangan Takut Berjalan Sendirian
Ada Aku Turut Menuntun Jalan
Saat Hatimu Diserang Kesepian... Aku Datang

Redam Badai, Lakukan Dengan Tenang
Hujan Ini Akan Engkau Kalahkan
Kalau Hatimu Percaya Padaku... Aku datang

Kau Jadi Samudera, Aku Langitnya
Memeluk Dunia, Kita Berdua...

Menyelamatkanmu...
(A Gentleman Saviour, A Knight In Shinning Amour)
Tetap Disampingmu...
(From The Cold Of Winter Through An Endless Summer)
Aku Datang Untukmu...

Jangan Takut Kehilangan Pegangan
Ada Aku Berimu Kekuatan
Agar Dirimu Mampu Untuk Bertahan...
Aku Datang...

If You Were The Ocean Than I'll be The Sea
Wherever You May Go, That's Where I'll Be...
Kau Jadi Samudera, Aku Langitnya...
If You Were The Ocean Than I'll be The Sea
Memeluk Dunia, Kita Berdua...
That's Where I'll Be...

mp3 here : rapidshare.de/files/6307930/JikustikFtLea-AkuDatangUntukmu.rar

2006-04-05T15:41:00.000+07:00

watched yesterday match between ac milan and lyon...
it was so exciting!!!
learnt from the match that never say die until the time is up!!!! JIA YOU!

2006-03-30T16:18:00.000+07:00

excited excited excited!!!!

2006-03-24T23:17:00.000+07:00

love that latest advertisement from A Mild...

"Harusnya Gampang Dibikin Susah"

2006-03-06T23:53:00.000+07:00

Thank You Lord for everything.
Your grace and love truly never leave us.
Love You Lord.
Let everything that is done is for Your glory.
Amen

2006-03-06T19:29:00.000+07:00

Lord,

i am scared
i am worried
help me to leave everything to You

Amen

ABouT ME~~~!!

2006-02-22T19:24:00.000+07:00

Arena

(known to self and others)

caring, cheerful, extroverted, friendly, helpful

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

adaptable, bold, clever, confident, energetic, giving, happy, independent, ingenious, mature, organised, religious, sympathetic, warm, wise

Façade

(known only to self)

Unknown

(known to nobody)

able, accepting, brave, calm, complex, dependable, dignified, idealistic, intelligent, introverted, kind, knowledgeable, logical, loving, modest, nervous, observant, patient, powerful, proud, quiet, reflective, relaxed, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, sentimental, shy, silly, spontaneous, tense, trustworthy, witty

Dominant Traits

60% of people agree that Brillyan is cheerful
60% of people agree that Brillyan is extroverted
60% of people agree that Brillyan is friendly
60% of people think that Brillyan is religious

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (0%) adaptable (20%) bold (20%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (40%) cheerful (60%) clever (20%) complex (0%) confident (20%) dependable (0%) dignified (0%) energetic (40%) extroverted (60%) friendly (60%) giving (20%) happy (20%) helpful (20%) idealistic (0%) independent (20%) ingenious (20%) intelligent (0%) introverted (0%) kind (0%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (0%) loving (0%) mature (20%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (20%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (0%) religious (60%) responsive (0%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (0%) sentimental (0%) shy (0%) silly (0%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (20%) tense (0%) trustworthy (0%) warm (20%) wise (20%) witty (0%)

Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 22.2.2006, using data from 5 respondents.
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Another Day Passed in Surabaya

2006-02-04T01:00:00.000+07:00

Friday, 03 February 2006
- My brother's birthday!!
- and Michael's birthday too!!
- Had dinner at Prosteak with my family (minus my youngest brother), Koko Yen Yen's family (plus Koko I I), Yolla and Darwin.
- Went out early to buy a cake from BreadTalk at Galaxy Mall.
- Reached the place early.
- Something silly happened! We did not get to eat the cake that we bought. Cause there was a miscommunication with the waitress. The waitress gave the cake to another table. Poor me!! In the end, the supervisor went to KOMUGI to get us another cake. There gone my mocha cake and say 'welcome' to strawberry ice cream tart!
- Went out with: my family, Koko Yen Yen's family, Yolla, Darwin.

- My second last day in Surabaya.
- I really enjoyed my stay here. Thanks to God, my family and my super-cute friends! ^^

My Activities For the Past One Week!!

2006-02-03T01:34:00.000+07:00

Thursday, 26 January 2006
- Flight to Surabaya at 0720am. Woke up at 0530am and reached Changi Airport at 0630am. Was late!! Couldn't buy Yolla's Burger King. Sorry girl!!
- Reached Surabaya. Was welcomed by my Dad! Woahh..almost 1 month didnt see him.
- 1st person to be contacted..my dearest friend,Yolla. Let her know that I had reached Surabaya safely and could not wait to meet her.
- Went to Yolla's house in the afternoon to give her roasted pork and her birthday present from me. A blue GUESS? bag! Hope that she liked it. Spent some time at her house before went home to take shower to get ready for dinner treat from Yolla. She sent me home and she waited for me to finish everything before we went back to her house. Thank God that we stayed near each other.
- Darwin and friends had already been waiting for some time before we reached Yolla's house. YUP! We were going to Surabaya Suki with his car.
- Yolla's birthday dinner treat was at Surabaya Suki. That was the second time I went there. Yummy! Met new friends.. All were Yolla's friend.
- Went somewhere to eat Roasted Corn. Yummy! Had been a while since I ate those! Did not get to eat the flavour that I wanted. But..I still thanked God for giving me the chance to taste the corn :)
- Went out with: Yolla, Sendy, Aileen, Vina, Margaretha, Evie, Michael, Sancai, Darwin, Peter

Friday, 27 January 2006
- Yolla came to my house after her class. We had appointment with the rest to watch movie at Galaxy Mall.
- Darwin and Sancai fetched us at Yolla's house.
- Had dinner at Hoka-Hoka Bento and Hendra and Ami joined us.
- Watched Jet Li's last martial arts movie, Fearless.
- Went out with: Yolla, Sancai, Darwin, Hendra and Ami

Saturday, 28 January 2006
- Went to Citra Supermarket to get some red wine and Kayun to get some fresh flowers for the reunion dinner.
- Had the chance to drive Altis from Kayun.
- Companied my brother to take the food that we had ordered for the reunion dinner. Had the chance drive home from the restaurant.
- Had the reunion dinner at my grandmother's house at Sidoarjo. The night was spent with the relatives from my mother's side.
- Had the chance to catch up with some of the relatives. And for the first time, I saw some of the children.
- Went out with: my family

Sunday, 29 January 2006
- It was Chinese New Year!!
- Had lunch and gathering at my fourth uncle's wife's house :P It had been a tradition to gather there.
- In the evening, went for a wedding party of my cousin. It was a very simple one. Did not expect such a large number of people came for the party. :)
- Went out with: my family

Monday, 30 January 2006
- Watched 'Karate Dog' with Angku Jian Li, my brothers and Yolla at Galaxy Mall.
- Walked around at Galaxy Mall. Something silly happened.
- Got my new Indonesia's number.
- Had dinner at Double Happiness with the ASRI HHH's committees.
- Went out with: Yolla, Angku Jian Li, my family and ASRI HHH's committees.

Tuesday, 31 January 2006
- It was another public holiday.
- Went to Tunjungan Plaza with my family.
- Had facial. OUCH!!
- Had dinner at Penang Village. YUMMY!
- Got myself a nice white belt :)
- Went out with: my family

Wednesday, 01 February 2006
- Stayed at home the whole day.
- There was something wrong with the electricity. Was in the darkness for at least one and half an hour. Hated to be in the darkness! Depended on the candle and my HP's light.

Thursday, 02 February 2006
- Woke up because there was a call from someone -_-"
- Yolla fecthed me at about 0130pm. Something silly happened again! (We were getting sillier and sillier..duhz!)
- Ate 1/2 of McD's cheeseburger.
- Watched 'Memoirs of Geisha' and someone felt asleep during the movie. :P Was disturbed by the person who sat in front of me. He blocked my view! *hmph*
- Walked around Tunjungan Plaza. Got myself another nice white belt. This time was from Billabong.
- Tried to look for the book that I wanted to read. But...could not find it :(
- Had dinner at Hachi-Hachi with Yolla, Wongso, Sancai and Darwin. Yipee! Darwin treated us! :)
- Met an old friend. I thought that she could not remember me anymore :( Did I change a lot?
- Went to FunPolis (Hopefully I was correct). Played TimeCrisis2 and Daytona. Well, I beat the guys!! Ok..sort of.. I got 2nd when we played Daytona. Well, it was good enough as I was the only girl among the 4 people who were playing.
- Went to G-Fan to continue playing. Had fun!!
- Went out with: Yolla, Wongso, Sancai and Darwin

Some photos to share...

2006-01-18T23:54:00.000+07:00

During lunch time on 18 January 2006. We were doing something naughty!! Guess where I was... Let me know, if you are correct, I will give you a present ^^

Me in yellow t-shirt at the back with half of my class, BMCD10509A

Brillyan and Ratna on 13 January 2006

Hayati, Brillyan and Ratna

Ratna, Princess 'DUCK' Hayati and Brillyan

Hayati, Brillyan and Ratna with the butterfly...

Yolla, Brillyan and Wawa

Yolla, Brillyan, Wawa AGAIN!

Thinking About My Future...

2006-01-18T00:06:00.000+07:00

I had the chance to have dinner with Pak Imam and Bu Leah together with Rissa. Well, Bu Leah shared a lot of things about their ministry and gave some inputs about something that we could do here in Singapore. Until one time when we talked about life partner. Rissa shared something about her experience.. (and I shall sensored her experience as she didnt allow me to share :P) Well, learnt something about her experience. One thing for sure, if it's God's plan, nothing will hinder it to work in our life. Rissa, if you are reading this, I hope that your relationship will be used by Him to be a blessing to other people. May your first love continue to be God and not man :)
Then, Bu Leah shared how she met Pak Imam for the first time. To cut the story short, when Pak Imam led the training, Bu Leah told God that if God wanted her to marry someone, she wanted to marry someone like Pak Imam. Then, a friend of Pak Imam told him that God asked him to tell Pak Imam that Pak Imam should marry Bu Leah. When I listened to it, I was like "WOW!!!" This relationship was really from God. But for sure, it came with a great responsibility ^^
Anyway, the title of this post was "Thinking About My Future...". It was because that I was thinking if God wanted me to marry someone, I wanted to get a husband who could work and serve God together with me. We would support each other and understand each other better. YUP! something like Pak Imam dan Bu Leah. It was such a wonderful thing to see them serve God together even at their age now. And they were completing each other. God.. that's what I wanted. So that I could complete my life-parther and he could complete me in serving You. Well, one thing for sure, when the time is right, God will send me someone who is the best for me, dont you agree?
I thanked God for the chances to listen to Rissa's and Bu Leah's stories. I thanked God to be able to attend the sharing by Mr Luis Bush. I thanked God for the wonderful day I had today! Love You Lord!

Day One!!

2006-01-03T22:58:00.000+07:00

It was my first day at school after a month of holiday. There was an excitement inside me. The first 2 person I met at school was Putri and David. Then slowly some people were coming over. This time round, our class was located at 1st level, somewhere near the toilet and the canteen. Not sure whether it was a good location for a class :P

Started the lesson with investigation. Yup! The lecturer asked us to be in a group of minimal 6 persons. Then we were supposed to investigate our team members. After a few groups and persons introduced themselves, it was getting drier and boring. Thank God that the lecturer noticed that so she continued the lesson with our first assignment! oh dear!! we were supposed to do a survey. Did that and this, finally we were done with it. And someone was tabulating the results.

Anyway, had a discussion with Mr Lek at his house in the evening. It was interesting and an eye-opener. I was amazed by what he did and I thanked God for people like him.

Okieeeee!! Gotta to go! I better tuck in early. Having class at 9am tomorrow! (!-!) Love you all!!

A Farewell!!

2006-01-03T01:09:00.000+07:00

A new year...started with a farewell. It was the day when Vern left Singapore for Sydney. I didnt know about it first. Huiling sent me a SMS saying that he was leaving today and they all were going to meet up at airport at 6pm. Since I was free, so I decided to join them.

It was supposed to be a sad thing for him to leave. But being naughty of us, we were laughing and smiling from ear to ear when he waved goodbye after he passed the immigration. I wonder what he was thinking about us being crazy.

Couldnt bear to leave the airport, some of us (Sis Claire, Xuelin, Rachel, Huiling, Bizhen, Samuel and of course, ME!) decided to go to the viewing mall. But...we were disappointed as we couldnt see the plane that Vern was supposed to take. In the end, we were planning for a gathering. For the ending of the day, we took a photo with us looking sad. Cant wait for the photos to be upload at the ekklesiaw316's website. You shall see that W316's members are natural with camera. And one thing I learnt, we are a vainpot too!!

Anyway, got some changes here and there for my blog. Not sure how I managed to do it. Well, this what they called self-learning? There were still a lot of things that I dont understand and I wanted so much to change some of the things, but I simply couldnt do it. (!-!) Hopefully, I can do the changes some day.

Better go now... Starting my class tomorrow afternoon at 2. Feeling happy to be back at school. I miss my classmates so much!! I wonder whether they miss me... (?-?) Love ya all!!!

Rachel and Brillyan

Brillyan and Huiling

anyone miss me?

2005-12-07T15:45:00.000+07:00

it has been sometimes since i blogged here. so.. anyone miss me?hehe..well..i guess i will be back soon if i am not lazy enough. hehe.. see you peeps around!

bersyukur...

2005-09-04T20:16:00.000+07:00

tadi pagi aku pergi ke persekutuan pembantu-pembantu indonesia di queenstown baptist church. kebetulan hari ini persekutuannya digabung, jadi dimulai jam 10. lumayan banyak juga yang dateng..kurang lebih 15 org-an

hari ini topiknya tentang doktrin Allah..yang ngebawain mike. topik yang cukup susah untuk ngebawain sesederhana mungkin..si mike ngebawainnya cukup baik ^^ moga-moga mereka yang ndengerin bisa mengerti...

trus tadi kita juga ngerayain ultahnya mbak sisi..makan birthday cake pandan.. yum yum! sempet ngambil foto juga. terus hujan turun cukup lebat juga..akhirnya beberapa dari kita nungguin hujannya reda..trus aku sempet ngomong2 ama 1 pembantu..bersyukur banget bisa bincang2 ama dia..bagaimana dia bisa mengenal Tuhan Yesus. bulan desember ini, dia bakal balik indo for good. dia juga cerita kalau ortunya masih belum percaya dan satu kampung ngga ada yang percaya..malah katanya kalau ada yang percaya Tuhan Yesus, akan dibunuh. wah ngeri juga.. yah aku berusaha untuk menguatkan dia. aku berdoa agar dia ngga takut akan semua ini dan tetap berpegang teguh pada imannya ketika dia balik ntar..

abis makan siang di hawker centre di deket queenstown mrt, patris, mike dan aku jalan-jalan ke ikea. si patris katanya mau cari lemari buku. tapi seru juga ke ikea..soalnya ngga pernah ke sana..ngeliatin barang2 di sana, dan juga ide2 untuk ruangan kecil. seru bangettt...kepingin shopping untuk rumah jadinya..huehue..coba kalo punya rumah baru..pasti seneng banget ke ikea.. =P

nwae, abis dari ikea, balik ke queesntown mrt dan patris dan mike ke gereja. bersyukur bisa ngomong2 dikit ama patris. yah..berharap agar suatu hari nanti bisa kumpul2 lagi dan ngomong2 banyak.

trus aku sempet ke parkway parade juga..shopping sendirian..ngga seru juga tapi kl jalan sendirian..mendingan rame2..

okie deh..mau nonton vcd doeloe yah..take care and GBU!

confused~~!!

2005-09-01T23:54:00.000+07:00

hari ini bangunnya siang bangeeetttt..tadi rencananya ke mau ke dokter..tapi ngga jadi..soalnya kesiangan =P but praise the Lord that the swollen part in my neck has reduced..udah mendingan..cuma hidungnya masih meler aza..
hari ini ada pu np iscf..membicarakan tentang pelajar Kristus..yang ngebawain adalah michael..yang nge-mc aku..honestly..kurang persiapan juga sih =P baru nyiapin lagu-lagunya di kantor. tp ngga kayak nge-mc juga sih..abisnya cuma beberapa orang doang.
aku lagi bingung..gimana yah..kadang aku bingung apakah aku mengambil keputusan yang bener.. antara cell grp meeting dan pu..kayak kemaren hari minggu, aku ditelp laz minute utk ketemu dengan cgl di city hall, tp abis makan malam aku dah teler banget (kurang tidur pas mim), jadinya aku decide utk ngga ketemu cgl aku..soalnya pasti ngga bs konsen. pas pulang..aku dah bener2 tepar di ranjang...teler banget..ngga tahu kalo cgl aku telp. kalo diliat2 mungkin aku udah mengecewakan cgl aku beribu-ribu kali..tp dia sabar bangeeeeeetttt..*sweat* ckckc..kagum!! tp kdg aku berpikir banyak sihh..yah dari kejadian hari minggu itu..aku mikir kl cgl aku ngga pengertian banget sehhh..masa orang capek banget masih harus disuruh dateng..makanya aku jadi bingung..apakah aku salah kalau begitu..apakah salahku juga soalnya aku ngga pernah jelasin ke mereka tentang pelayanan ku? tapiii..dah bolak balik aku jelasin..tp koq kayaknya mereka simply melupakan apa yang telah aku katakan..akuuu binggguuuunggg! hix hix (!-!)

What's wrong with me?

2005-09-01T01:13:00.000+07:00

mim- Singapore 2005 sudah lewat...oh yah, for those of you who doesnt understand bahasa indonesia, i am really sorry, but i do feel like using bahasa more than english right now. do bear with me yah..
mim benar benar membawa banyak berkat..aku mendapatkan cukuyp banyak berkat dari acara ini. setiap plenary dan workshop yang ada..sampai sharing-sharing dari teman-teman sgl. aku juga benar benar merasakan bahwa Tuhan adalah Provider God. Dia sudah mencukupi segala sesuatunya..terutama dalam bidang dana! kita bahkan mendapatkan surplus!! Praise the Lord!
eniwei...dari mim, lgs tepar..aka lgs sakit...pertama kirain cuma flu biasa..tp pas mobilizer training pada hari senin kemaren, aku ngerasain ada benjolan di bagian kiri dari leher. pantesan aku ngerasa tenggorokan kiriku sakit, kuping bagian kiri sakit dan juga migraine kepala bagian kiri. huaaahhh...rupanya gara2 tuh benjolan. tapi..aku pass hari senin dengan kegiatan 1 hari..dari mobilizer training (i didnt regret that i joined) dan juga pjrn. yang namanya sakit pun akhirnya terlupakan...
hari selasa..dengan mindset harus menyelesaikan pistos pada hari itu..aku bangun dengan tenggorokan yang lebih sakit =P tiba2 aku menerima sms dari ci fonny kalau hari itu jadi ktb..huaahhh..aku dah mulai panik..aku harus nyelesain pistos dan aku harus ktb..bagaimana iniii..mana mungkin!! akhirnya setelah sedikit sini dan sana..memutuskan ktb di kantor sehingga abis ktb aku lgs ngelembur bikin pistos. ngerjain tuh pistos sampe 1230 pagi..baru selesai 2 artikel -_-" tapi aku bersyukur bisa ber-ktb sebelum nass balik indo (hohoh..tp bahan 1 bab blm selesai) aku bersyukur banget bisa ber-ktb bareng mereka semua..rupanya..kayaknya..(feliz banget yahhh..) kita ber-4 (yg ikut mim) mengambil keputusan yang sama dan kita mempunyai problem yang sama. koq punya problem malah bersyukur..yah..abisnya..kt bs melihat kesamaan diri kita semua..dan aku percaya kalau melalui ktb ini kita akan saling menguatkan dan saling membantu.
terus hari rabuu..hidungku mulai meler!! pdhl kemaren cuma buntu doang..haix..ingusnya keluarnya cuma dikit-dikit..tp bandel..keluar terus..orang-orang kantor pada bilang kalau mukaku pucat..tp koq aku liat di kaca, aku ngga merasa yah..hehe..trus bilang ama diri sendiri kalau jam 6 harus ke bukit batok utk ke dokter. tp...jam 5 lebih masih belom selesai pistos..masih 1/2 way wawancara mike lewat yahoo messenger (last minute changes sehhhh). akhirnya sambil dikit lari-lari..aku ke glendale park utk ngambil shuttle bus yang jam 6 ke bukit batok..hehe..numpang lewat rumahnya mike..(thanks mike..sampe kamu harus lari~~!!) ehhh....sampe bb..ngga ada klinik yang buka..ada 1 di luarnya west mall..koq kayak dah bangkrut githu =X akhirnya ke guardian beli titipannya mama dan ke food court utk beli makan malam ku dan abe. trus ngeliat jam..ehhh..masih bisa catch shuttle bus balik ke glendale park. hoho..akhirnya numpang lewat rumah mike lagi.. (tp stuck di sana krg lbh 1/2 jam =p)
nah..kyknya tuh title lebih cocoq dengan cerita selanjutnya ini.. td pas meeting..kt ada ngebahas sampe ke hal group reformed dan karismatik..aku sedih banget dehh.. (sampe mau nangis..mungkin krn capek dan sakit, shg emosiku kacau) soalnya ada yg lgs nembak blg kl karismatik itu ajaran sesat..terus ngebahas terus..rasanya yang namanya hati itu abis ditusuk githu..(kyk lg direject ama cowo =p) sedih bangett... karena aku mengenal Tuhan dan bertumbuh di gereja karismatik. aku ngerasa kalau Tuhan lah yang merencanakan semua ini..dari aku masuk ke chc sampe aku bisa bertumbuh. tanpa chc, aku bukan apa-apa pada saat ini. bukannya aku bilang kalau hanya gereja karismatik aza yang betul..tapi kdg sedih sih ngeliat kalau di dalam tubuh Kristus itu terjadi kebencian. bukankah kita harus bersatu? bukankah kita brothers and sisters? bukankah kita melayani Tuhan yang sama? tapi mengapa ini semua terjadi? kadang aku ngga bisa ngerti aza..setidaknya mungkin aku bersyukur aza..karena teman-teman baikku juga banyak yang dari reformed..tapi mereka menerimaku apa adanya..dan aku menerima mereka apa adanya..
okie dehhh...dah malam banget (mestinya pagi sih) dah waktunya bobo..ntar kena marah..dan aku jg perlu waktu istirahat juga...time for me to find my prince charming in the dream! (hanya Tuhan dan aku yang tahu sapa...ahahaha!)

Tuhan ajarku selalu untuk mengasihi orang-orang yang di sekelilingku
Tuhan ampunilah apabila aku telah membenci mereka sadar atau tidak sadar
Ajarkan aku untuk bisa bersabar ya Tuhan..
Berikan aku hati, mata dan tangan seperti milik-Mu
Terima kasih Tuhan atas segala sesuatu yang telah Kau lakukan di dalam hidupku
Biarlah Engkau terus yang memakai diriku untuk kemuliaanMu saja dan misiMu di dunia ini
Amin!

My 20th Birthday Celebration

2005-08-15T00:15:00.000+07:00

i turned 20 yesterday.. yup yup..a lot of people asked me how does it feel to turn 20..well, it felt the same..no difference..i still have 1 head (that was my answer to ami when she asked me).

one thing, i thank God for the friends and brothers who celebrated my birthday together. i know i might have disappointed my church friends, but i guess i can only be in 1 place at 1 time (hmm..and my own reason..hehe..)

started my saturday with a meeting for MIM-Singapore 2005 (for indonesians out there, have you registered yet?) *sweat* everyone was late, so it was only started at about 1pm and ended at 3pm.

then, i rushed to glendale park, which was located at upper bukit timah, for the outting. well, my friends were so kind to leave me some food...then had a time to praise and worship the Lord and also sharing. well, they had prepared a birthday cake for me! so..they sang a song for me (it sounded sad..huahaha) and also a song called "selamat ulang tahun". not the usual birthday song, but i love that song. as usual, they asked me to share something, and i shared about how good God had been to me and also i pray that God will continue to use me when i grow older. oh yah, i asked some of them (grace,feliz and jimmy) to share something about me...so touched when i heard about what they said to me. anyway, stayed there till about 10 plus and took cab home with grace and ipie as i was very tired.

when i reached home, my brothers prepared a cake also for me! so, we celebrated my birthday together. yum yum!! i love the ice cream birthday cake. thanks bros! you guys are great! ^^

well, i think that's about all.... hmm..just wanna say 'thanks' again for all of you who made my day! love you all! GBU!

cutting the cake for my brothers...

back at home, my brothers surprised me with a birthday cake from swensens..how sweet they are..

Ci Fonny and Brillyan

Brillyan and Grace

My birthday cake from NP ISCF

Brillyan and her birthday cake and Gita

make a wish make a wish...

guess what i was thinking of....