temptation

i was very tempted to be angry at everyone and everything today. not sure what had happened to me.. it started when i was waiting for a bus to go to the united square. i told my friend that i would be late and she told me to go straight to juntion 8 to meet them. i was quite pissed off as i would only be late not later than 1/2 hour and they couldnt even wait. and eventually, i reached junction 8 earlier than them. my friend knew that i was pissed off, so she apologized when another friend wasnt around. it was so easy to bring up all the past hurt... throughout the journey to junction 8.. how many times i thought of the times when i had to wait for her for a long time. and she couldnt even wait for me for a while.

on the way to the mrt to go back home, i told her bluntly that i regretted to go all the way to junction 8. partly cause i was still in my bad mood.. and also, i was disappointed on some things that even me myself couldnt understand. i thought that.. i went all the way to junction 8, walking thru the rain.. even though i brough umbrella, i was still wet, and i wasnt even sure what was the purpose of me going to junction 8 *sigh* it was just so easy to be angry at everything.

thru out the journey, i just told myself to be patient.. kept on praying to God that i wont flare up at others... well, thank God i didnt flare up at anyone till i reached home.

another temptation to be angry came during the journey inside the bus 36 on the way home. i sat at the wrong place! there was water dripping from the bus' ceiling above me -_-" aiyoooo...i couldnt even sleep cause it 'attacked' me from front and behind. i think that everyone was looking at me.. cause no matter what i didnt move from that seat :P i had no choice coz there was no more space for me to stand up. so i bear with the water thru out the journey. i used the plastic bag that i had to prevent the water to drip to my pants :P no idea how come i became so smart to come up with that idea :P thru out the incident, whenever the water dripped at me successfully, i would just smile. hahaha.. i had no idea why i did that :P

felt like walking in the rain from bus stop to home. but i knew that i couldnt do that. i am having flu.. so i cant afford to be sicker.. i still have plans for tml, sat and sun...cant be sick! maybe next time then walk in the rain..

feel much better now.. but i still need something.. someone's hug.. any volunteer? huahauha..