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An Update from Brillyan

It has been sometimes that you heard about me. Here I am in Surabaya for the past 1 week plus plus.. It's hot here!!
Anyway.. I have been helping my dad with the admin stuff of his cigarette factory. The plan for the future? I am still thinking about the opportunity of going China for learning language.
Anyway..Have been going out a lot too with my friends in Surabaya :D Will be going out again later for a farewell of a friend who is leaving for work tomorrow morning. This is my life in Surabaya!! :P
Okie then..shall update more things later when I have the inspiration ;) That's all for now friends! Take care!

A Touching Moment....

Amazing Child...!

This young girl was blind since young, but the blindness didnt stop her to show her talent. It was a touching performance...
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God's time

So many things happened in the past week... from my exam's date not confirmed yet to my friend's interview in jakarta. so many things that didnt go according to my plan yah.. by right, if my plan went smoothly, i would be getting ready to go back surabaya right now. but i guess God still wants to do something while i am in singapore.

with so many things happened, i started to understand again about God's time. His plan is more beautiful than our plan. there might be things that I dont like to happen, but i do really need to believe that He has beautiful things coming and He knows what's the best for every single one of us.

for the time being, i would just leave everything to Him and be more sensitive to Him... hopefully, as i learn more, i would be able to accept everything that happen with big heart and really control my emotion...

Selalu Mengalah

Is there really a guy who can really sacrifice like this guy in this video clip?
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From the Grand Final Idola Cilik..

My hair was standing when I heard the duet...I think I like this version better than Joy and Delon's version :P
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Thank You God...

Taken from: Heavenly Humour Vol. One by George Ong.
Published in 2006.
Page 95-96

If God has an answering machine it would be like this...
Imagine praying and hearing this:
Thank you for calling My Father's House, Please select one of the following four options:
Press 1 for a request
Press 2 for a thanksgiving
Press 3 to complain
For all other inquiries, press 4.
So you press 1 and hear: "We're sorry. All of the angels are helping other customers right now. Please stay on the line. Your call will be answered in the order that it was received."

What would it be like if you heard the following response as you called God's answering machine?
"To receive the latest promotional gift with your order from paradise parlour, press 0, and an operator will assist you."
"To find out how many angels dance on the head of a pin, press 5."
"If you'd like for King David to sing a psalm for you, press 6."
"To find out if your relative is here, enter his/her date of death and listen for the list that follows."
"For reservation information or to confirm your reservations at My Father's House, press the letters J-O-H-N, followed by the numbers 3-1-6."
"To know what your pastor is doing at this moment, press 7."
"For answers to nagging questions about dinosaurs, the age of the earth and where Noah's Ark is, wait till you get here!"
"If you want to know what I think of world politics, don't press anything. Hang up and listen for laughter."
"Our computers show that you have already called once today. Please hang up immediately."
"This office is closed for the weekend. Please call again on Monday."

Thank God you can call Him often. You only need to ring once and He hears you. Because of Jesus, you never get a busy signal. God takes each call personally. He knows each caller personally. Then you will call and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, ad he will say: "Here am I." (Isaiah 58:9) (Church Bulletin)

Cute Advertisement.....

Check out the boy's expression at the end.. cute!

If You Could Change Your Past, What Would It Be?

We had been asked one or more times if we could change our past, what would it be. Well, most of us would give an answer that our life perfect and there was nothing that we would change. But is that really your answer?

I finally found the answer to that question. If I could change the past, I would be more sensitive to one of my friend. What I feel right now is that I have failed to be a good friend to this friend of mine. And this mistake is so big that somehow I feel that I am part of the reason why these friend becomes who she is right now. The guilty feeling is there... And I am not sure how to handle it without feeling guilty towards her. A lot of questions were in my mind when I was talking to her... and those questions started with the word "If".But I guess, it's all too late now. I don't have the power to go to the past and change whatever happened. I guess I just have to live with the feeling forever.

It's hurtful when I found out about it. I cried till my eyes were swollen and almost finished up a box of tissue. The last time I cried this bad was when I broke up with my ex-boyfriend in February. Can you imagine that? It was even more hurtful even my friend said that she had no more value. There was like a knife stabbing my heart. It was very painful!!Really... the only time I felt this way was when I broke up. The same feeling... It kinds of make me realize how much do I really value this friend of mine till I have this kind of feeling. Won't you cry so badly for a friend whom you didn't care at all?

Well, think to it... Maybe if you failed yourself, it won't be this bad. But this is about a life of another person who is going through a lot of things because of what you might neglected to do. That what I was thinking.. I don't mind if it happened to myself, but I couldn't take it if it happened to others.

I just hope that God would shine His glory through this situation. I have no idea what God wants to do... All I can do is just following Him and surrender everything to Him...

To my friends who are reading this post, I hope that you really try your best to be someone's friend. Be really there when they need you. Really try your best so that you won't have to regret whatever things that you don't do what you were supposed to do. May no one ever gone through the same feeling that I had gone through today...

If Only...

I love this song very much.. If only there was a guy out there who could be someone in this song....

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Horoscope...

Year 2008 Romance

You idealize having a close relationship and spending time laughing, spending time in the moonlight and romanticizing until the wee hours of the morning. You have been going through a lot of changes in your love life, and not so sure you can deal with the ups and downs that you have experienced in relationships in the past. You may want to enhance your playfulness and creativity by exploring cultural experiences where you can enjoy beauty with your partner. Excitement in your love life and enjoying the high life is very appealing to you now.

All these fun and creative activities will help you and your partner to strengthen your communication. Being spiritually connected with another helps you to feel the equal energy of sharing. Your intense desire for feeling connected to your love and taking it to the next step will trigger a need to explore whether your dreams are being reciprocated. Discussions of partnerships and marriage are likely and, through these talks, you gain new insight into your desires.

Towards the end of the year you will want to openly share your innermost secrets and passionate nature. The desire to be more connected to home and your nesting instincts will want to be satisfied in this year of new beginnings.
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I dont really believe in horoscope. I had nothing to do and I was browsing through Yahoo when I came to the horoscope section. There, I went to find out my horoscope for fun. There was something true about what it said. Just look at the first sentence.. that's my romantic part!! hehehehe... And also the second sentence..sometimes I was just wondering whether I could go through another ups and downs of a relationship again. I was just so afraid of being hurt again and again...
Sometimes I was just wondering about relationship... *sigh*

Quote from Sex & The City Trailer...

"Life doesn't always turn out to be your fantasy, that's why you need friendship so real to get through it"

last 3 days of my US trip...

I am in Miami now... enjoyin the breeze and the sea here..

shall enjoy the last few days in US. I will be leavin US on 27 May and reachin SIN on 29 May... Please prepare the red carpet at Changi yah ;)

last hours...

here i am in the last few hours in oklahoma city... time flies really past yah.. 3 weeks had passed so fast.. especially with the great gang :) i am going to miss the time that all of us spent together here.. i guess the residency is fun all because of the companion that i had for the past 3 weeks.. thanks guys and gals.. you all had left a wonderful memory in my life :D


Back: Rossy, David, Amanda, Calvin, Putri, Lala, Faisal, Paqsa
Front: Brillyan, Janna, Monica


New York... Here we come!!! :D

Some Update...

Some update from Brillyan...

My muscles are aching!! They hurt so much that I have difficulty to sit down, stand up, and even walk up or down the stairs. Not only me, my roommates and some of the class also got it :P:P All because of the exercise that we did yesterday to check our muscle endurance and muscle strength and something about the cardiovascular activities. We had to run 10 laps, did sit and reach thingy, weight lifting, stand squat, push up and curl up. Did you know that I cried yesterday in the gym. Soooo embarrassing... But I just couldnt stop from tearing up. It was when we were supposed to do step up in this very high block. I have a trauma in doing this as I had an accident when back in Surabaya when I had PE class. I was doing the step up activity and my leg hit the chair (where I was doing the step up) It was bleeding at first but then I found out that my broken was crooked because of that accident. So, whenever I am supposed to do a step up, I would be so scared. It was so bad yesterday that I was shivering. When my friends saw my pale face, they kept on asking what's wrong with me. As you know, the more they asked me questions, the more I am stressed out and in the end, I cried cause I couldnt take it anymore. hehehhe...it's so embarrassing right?? hihihihiiii...

Anyway, during the class, we were watching a movie called "Sicko". It was about the health care system in the United States. To cut it short, the health care system in US is sux! There were a lot of people who were either suffering or dead because they didnt have enough money to go for the medical recommendations that were given to them. Even for the heroes who worked very hard on September 11 incident in New York. Many of them suffered a lot of things because of the volunteer jobs they did but the government didnt care about them at all!! Michael Moore, the producer, compared US to Great Britain, France and even Cuba where the citizens there were able to get medical help for free! It was so cool in Britain that the cashier there was not for paying the hospital bills, but for the reimbursement for the patients' travel expenses. COOL!! In France, the government sent a nanny for those household whose both parents were working full time. It's all for free!! Shall we migrate to France?? kekekeke...

I found that the advertisements on TV in the United States were interesting. Some of them were stupid and some of them were interesting. Some of them had no connection with products that were being advertised. Many of the advertisements were about drugs and insurance. Then some of them dared to compare the products with the competitors, what I meant was that they really said out the competitors' names.

Yesterday was the 2nd tornado warning that I had. What made it worst was that we were outside, on the way back to school from the Health Center. What made it even worst was that we were forced to move from the bus that we took from the center to another bus. It was raining so hard!! Even though we just walked a few steps from the first bus from the other bus, we were wet and by the time we were sitting down in the bus, I was shivering so hard from the cold. bbrrrrrrrrr! in the end, we didnt go to the quail springs mall as there was another tornado coming and the school didnt want take the risk to send us to the mall :( but think to it.. it was good as i didnt need to spend money at the mall ;)

Ok Ok Ok... I think I should stop now... I had typed so much yah :P:P just wait for another update yah kekekke... take care!!

2nd week in Oklahoma City

Hey thereeee!!

It's the 2nd week in Oklahoma City. I am taking the class of management of personal lifestyle for this week and something to look forward to this saturday is the graduation ceremony!! The personal lifestyle class so far so good... the professor is so fit!! and she is trying to make the class more interesting, which is good! :)

Anyway.. throughout this trip in US, I have learnt a lot of things, not just those things in the campus, but also about how to stay with others who are different than me. It's a good experience.. Makes me think what will happen if I stay together with my future husband next time :P I guess I have to bear with all the things that I dont really like...

US is a different country that Asian... Even the birds that I can find here are different than those I can find in Singapore or Indonesia. I find that the birds here are so beautiful... I can just watch them fly so freely.. Another scenery that I also like is the view at Mt Wichita and from the top of Mt Scott. It was so breathtaking there and it seems that I could just spend a lot of time there to sit down, enjoy the wind and enjoy the view. It's something different from the view in Singapore. Then, I got to see the bison and prairie dogs at the Wichita Wildlife Reserve Park. The prairie dogs are so cute..you just want to bring one of them home :P



Ok Ok.. I shall end here first... ciao!!

School..

Today shall be the 1st day of class. And my class got the Environmental Science module for the 1st class. It looks fun with the field trips, hopefully.

I was just wondering whether I am really a man pleaser.. Have I been trying to please all my friends throughout this trip instead of being myself? Am I that scared to let my friends know the real me? *sigh* Had some things between my friends and I..is either they arent happy with me or I am not happy with them.. Isnt that part of friendship? For those who know me well, I will keep thinking this matter for a few days... That's what I guess I need to change.. Which is difficult!! I dont even know what I am rambling about here..Maybe I should just get ready for class now...

Take care

Oklahoma City

I am in Oklahoma City now!! Had a little problem when we checked in. Apparently they didnt have our names in the rooming list :( So, after calls here and there, they managed to squeeze the five of us into a smaller room that we were supposed to get. So, we had to sleep in a king size bed and sofa bed. And today then we were supposed to move to the room that we were supposed to have -.-"

Anyway...will be having orientation at 11am later. Shall get ready now...

San Francisco....

Here I am in SF... spent a lot of time in hotel..It's pretty scary here around the area in the hotel..There were many homeless around the hotel..So it would be safer for us to stay....

But nevertheless... we did go to the Pier39, Union Square, and Golden Gate Bridge...For more the photos..you can go to www.friendster.com/brillyan

Tomorrow...we shall be in Oklahoma..and will be starting school next monday :( time to get more serious and concentrate on studying now!

Throughout the trip... I get to know more of my friends..but seriously..some of the things are not good yah.. *sigh*

Anyway..I shall post more next time yah..

*enjoyin the last nite in SF*

US trip...

Have been in US for 8 days now..Havent been really had the time to type something here.. but I shall find some time to post some thing about US here :D

Anyway..right now I am at San Francisco..will be leaving for Oklahoma on Saturday. The weather has been different with each different cities. LA was very cold whenever the wind is blowing. It could get very very cold during the night. Las Vegas was very hot in the afternoon! But during the night, it could get quite windy...As for San Francisco...It was a bit colder than LA when the wind was blowing. So...Can you imagine how the weather was throughout the journey..

Will try to post some pictures in my friendster.. so feel free to come visit my friendster yah ;)

Shall get some sleep now... Nite SF!!

2 more days to go...

yipeee!! 2 more days to go!! i cant wait till i step to LA :P
US... wait for me yah!!!! :P

Women & Sizes of Body

I was watching Tyra Show yesterday and the day before. I didnt really watch the whole episode, but I managed to catch at least 1/2 hour of the show. The topic for both episode was about women and sizes of their body. Basically Tyra made an experiment of 10 women on how they would label each other based on their bodies size and also what occupation that would be related to their bodies size. Before they started to label each other, they needed to look at the mirror and said out their thoughts when they were looking at themselves in the mirror.

Anyway, the 2 episodes really made me thinking on how we would label each other based on our body size. Have you ever thought that a skinny person might not want to be skinny at all? Maybe that person had tried everything to gain weight, but he/she was born that way. Or maybe that an obese person didnt want to be the size of him/her now. He/she had tried everything, from exercise and diet, but there was nothing in the result.

How we labeled another persons might leave a very big impact on them. We might not know them.. or they might not know us.. but even as strangers called names on others, the impact will still be big on the psychology side.

There was a news in TODAY today about a French lady minister who were trying to get bill on punishing anyone who tried to get women to lose weight. That was interesting. I am sure that many of us would think that a good looking lady would be the one with a slim body. And I believed that many of us had tried diet (including me!!)

I believed that losing weight is not wrong. We should really know our own body. If we were obese and were not able to do anything because of our body, then we should really think to exercise to lose some weight.. If we knew that our body was unhealthy because of all the fat at the wrong place, we should really start exercising.

What do you think?

Inikah Cinta

M E-INIKAH CINTA

lagu-lagu jadul

beberapa music video lagu2 dulu banget... lagu2 kesukaanku ;)
enjoy the music :D


STINKY-JANGAN TUTUP DIRIMU



STINKY-MUNGKINKAH



STINKY-KAULAH YANG PERTAMA



STINKY-CINTA SUCI



BASE JAM-BUKAN PUJANGGA



LINGUA-BILA KUINGAT



LINGUA-TAKKAN HABIS CINTAKU



LINGUA-JANGAN KAU HENTI



NADILA-SALAHKAN AKU



BRAGI-JANJI

i love this music video...

LETTO - PERMINTAAN HATI
mengharukan ceritanya :'(
i love letto's song...

Ingat Kamu

Duhhh...ingat kamu terus deh.. hayooo inget sapa yah?

IDOLA CILIK...

More video clips on Septian and Kiki ;)

SEPTIAN



KIKI

to let go...

sometimes it's hard to let go of things or someone yah... even when we have already known that he/she is not for us... *sigh*

IDOLA CILIK

Tadi aku lihat acara Idola Cilik di RCTI... 2 anak yang mendapat giliran terakhir untuk bernyanyi adalah Septian dan Kiki. Duh... 2 anak itu... beneran nda bisa dilupakan bok.. keren abis deh... sampe2 aku nangis ngeliat penampilannya Kiki... takjub banget.. it was just amazing to listen to his beautiful voice. Dia juga ngga malu punya papa yang cacat gara2 kecelakaan.. beneran deh.. i am speechless about him...aku nemuin 1 video pas si Kiki nyanyi..dan 1 video lagi itu si Septian. Hope you all enjoy the videos :)

KIKI


SEPTIAN

Movie and Dinner with Yati

Had a date with Yati on Thursday at VivoCity. We wanted to watch The Leap Years as it had been ages for both us since we watched movie. But to our horror, the queue was very long, and by the time, we had reached the middle of the queue, the tickets for the movie was sold out. So, in the end, we bought ticket for a movie that we didnt expect to watch, Vantage Point. And.... we had good seats too! in the middle of the row, and they were 3rd from the back. so, we didnt have to strain our neck just to watch the movie.

Anyway, the movie was interesting as it was shown from 6 different point of views. Before stepping into the movie hall, all we knew about this movie was about the shooting of the US president. That's all... But what we didnt know was that it was about 1/2 hour event that was told from 6 different person: the TV channel who was reporting live, the security agent, the local policeman, the president, the US citizen who was having holiday in Spain, and the villain.

Well, moral of the story.... Things never really looked as what it is seen through our eyes. And... dont despise yourself as being the usual citizen, you can do things too :)

Had a great time with Yat... it has been ages since we met. So, we had a lot to catch up. Did that during the dinner at Fig & Olive. Oh... I forgot to take a picture with her :( I just simply love taking pictures yah? :P Well, it is not that I am narcissist (OK... I am) but I just love taking picture for my memory. I want to remember every moment in my life, which I just cant depend too much on my brain :P
Oooppsss... I went away from the topic :P

Anyway, I still had a list of friends to catch up with.
1. Patricia, Grace n Ami
2. ISClub friends
3. Polytechnic classmates
4. Secondary schoolmates
5. Advanded diploma classmates
6. .... (I shall fill in when I remember :P)

OK... so who wants to meet me next?

3 things that I want....

There are 3 things that I desire right now...
1. Lasik... it's tiring to wear contact lens everyday for the pas 13 years yah..
2. a good camera.. when i have saved up, i really want to get a good camera to company me and capture the things that I see.
3. a trip to teddy bear museum at jeju island. i guess... the prince hours and princess hours teddy bears influenced me too much :P

the list shall continue....

it has been such a long time...

it has been years since i posted here yah.. so many things had happened throughout the months..there was an event that impacted me very very much.. but i guess life still has to go on yah..sometimes i dont know whether i am really that strong to face it..even though i had tried very hard to forget abt it.. but i guess there would still be time when i would remember abt it.. haix.. i guess no matter what.. he would still have that place in my heart..

God.. give me that strength that You had given me throughout this time.
God.. thank you for Your care throughout this time..
Let this period can be used to mould me to be like what You want me to be Lord.. Let everything that happened can bring glory to You...