If You Could Change Your Past, What Would It Be?

We had been asked one or more times if we could change our past, what would it be. Well, most of us would give an answer that our life perfect and there was nothing that we would change. But is that really your answer?

I finally found the answer to that question. If I could change the past, I would be more sensitive to one of my friend. What I feel right now is that I have failed to be a good friend to this friend of mine. And this mistake is so big that somehow I feel that I am part of the reason why these friend becomes who she is right now. The guilty feeling is there... And I am not sure how to handle it without feeling guilty towards her. A lot of questions were in my mind when I was talking to her... and those questions started with the word "If".But I guess, it's all too late now. I don't have the power to go to the past and change whatever happened. I guess I just have to live with the feeling forever.

It's hurtful when I found out about it. I cried till my eyes were swollen and almost finished up a box of tissue. The last time I cried this bad was when I broke up with my ex-boyfriend in February. Can you imagine that? It was even more hurtful even my friend said that she had no more value. There was like a knife stabbing my heart. It was very painful!!Really... the only time I felt this way was when I broke up. The same feeling... It kinds of make me realize how much do I really value this friend of mine till I have this kind of feeling. Won't you cry so badly for a friend whom you didn't care at all?

Well, think to it... Maybe if you failed yourself, it won't be this bad. But this is about a life of another person who is going through a lot of things because of what you might neglected to do. That what I was thinking.. I don't mind if it happened to myself, but I couldn't take it if it happened to others.

I just hope that God would shine His glory through this situation. I have no idea what God wants to do... All I can do is just following Him and surrender everything to Him...

To my friends who are reading this post, I hope that you really try your best to be someone's friend. Be really there when they need you. Really try your best so that you won't have to regret whatever things that you don't do what you were supposed to do. May no one ever gone through the same feeling that I had gone through today...