long holiday

yes! i am complaining that i am having way too long for holiday. this is just the beginning..cant imagine that i will be having a lot of this kind of holiday till i graduate *sigh* not that i dont like to have holiday, but if it is too long, it makes me think wierdly. and by the time school starts, i will be too lazy to do anything.

anyway.. i did some cleaning on my room (i also wonder the lazy me become hardworking in cleaning my room) i was clearing all the cards that i posted on my table. decided to change the way my table looks like (well, it looks very clean and empty without the cards) when i took out the cards, i took time to read again all the wishes in the card. and you know what... when i had packed everything, i started to cry. it's all tepen's fault for passing the melan virus to me *hmph*

well, to be honest.. i think i am in one of my lowest point of my life (yes! finally.. i admit it!) blame it to the long holiday that makes me think wierd things :P have been questioning myself a lot recently. somehow my future becomes blur.. seems like i dont know what i want to do anymore. i did question God.. what He really wants from me. my melan side controlled me for the past few days..

when i was packing the cards and photos, i was feeling lonely. i thank God that i didnt throw the cards away. somehow those cards gave me the encouragement. there was one card from sis claire saying that i am not alone, God is there to watch over me. the moment i read that card, i bursted into tears. out of so many cards, that card left a deep impression till now.

and now i just wanted to did something.. i wanted to give this message to these specific people...

melissa from jtband, clarinet section - hey girl! how are you? i was reading the bdae wish card that you gave me years back. *shrugs* i havent been a good sister yah.. well, wondering how you are doing now. must been doing good over in aussie yah.. do take care!

8 sisters - how are you all doing? i just sent mass sms to those of you who are in singapore. well, only 3 of u replied.. i met yati, audrey and ginny. wondering about the rest of you. especially RITA!!! you didnt pick up my call and didnt reply my sms. my dear, where are you? are you ok? *sigh* Astrid... when are you coming to singapore? Ratna.. sorry that i didnt meet you up when you were in singapore. my parents were here, so i neeeded to company them. wish you all the best in jakarta with your work. Yuri.. you are another girl whom i havent met for so long. what are you doing now? still busy with your clarinet?

ci ena - i still keep the small note that you gave me when i had exam. it was so sweet of you giving nass and me an exam package. with the greedy me, within 2 days, whatever inside the package was inside my stomach :P havent been catching up with you.. jia you for your work!!

SP -ISCF - i still kept the card from all of you for my birthday. and you know what.. it dated 2 years back..hahaha.. how time flied yah.. most of you who wrote in the card had graduated from sp. really thankful for each one of you.. and i still keep the present nicely in the box ;)

grace - my buket! hahahhaa.. how are you bu? the last time i saw you was when kak lena came to sg. it was also a brief moment. havent been catching up with you. i shall organize a meal with you and pat2 soon :) wait for my sms yah.. heheee..

christine limantoro - i still have the xmas wish card that you sent to me.. heee.. wondering where you are right now..we havent been meeting each other for a very long time. hopefully, one day, we will be able to meet up :)

etta - just met up with you last month. but still not enuff :P just chatted with you..and you were watching korean drama :P dont cry when you watch it yah..hahahaa..

yolla - havent received your reply. must be busy doing stuff in jakarta. so envy of you to get to travel again. *sigh* can i follow? i also want to travel!!! put me in your luggage? i promise i will lose weight :D

cassandra, fenny, jennifer, devi - i hope that i get the 4 of u right from the card. lol. it was a 17th bdae card from the four of you. i noe devi, cassan dan fenny are still in singapore.. and jennifer still in usa? well..do take care yah all of you...

fenny, mel, wenda, yudi - my long lost irc friends :P all of you now are in aussie? well.. how are you all? hope all of you are doing great :)

N215 - a card made by rach. thank you for giving me a great family... :)

did i miss anyone? hopefully not.. hahaa.. STM (short-term memory)... i just didnt want to take the cards out again from the box :P (not lazy lah..just that..erer..later cry how?)
better go now.. have been in front of the laptop for too long. i better rest my eyes.. *ciaoz*